Can you kick it

moved

2008-05-03T21:11:00.001+08:00

guess so much has happened but that's a need to move.

so long.

2008-05-01T22:10:00.002+08:00

ah, been some time since i last posted. hrm, and a few substantial happenings also i guess, and yes, most are happy stuff. (:

monday and tuesday, had bowling season, so didn't go for lessons at all on both days. lol, both mornings had strange stuff happening, like people finding out last minute that they'd left their ball befind the pe dept toilet, so had to climb the gym wall to take the balls. haha, first time trying and it was, rather, fun. but not until tuesday's when something happened. lol. hrm, didn't bowl well on monday, but picked up on tuesday, though it was a little too late. hrm but both days were quite good i guess, late nights in school, hell tiring yet meaningful. (: just that, now i'm a little worried that i'm not really worried at all about my academics. it's like i don't even care that i can't keep up with work now. AHH. jialat! haha.

oh oh, and LYNX managed 3rd for sports day! : DD haha, it was a really damn good result, considering we only have say, the most 5 trackers? and the top 2 houses were virtually untouchable, so it was the best possible result alrd i guess. and cheerleading got 4th too! hrm, thought that they did put in ALOT of effort alrd, but i guess it's a cheerdance competition so it can't really be helped. great job guys! aye, and i did 11.36 for triple jump! LOL. first time in my life, and it was a not bad distance i think. : D missed 3rd by 20+cm, no medal! OH OH, and we(suf, jason, benf) got first for 4X100! : D HAHA, imba feeling when ben caught up with edward to finish first. euphoric! haha. coz we are THE ODAC! : D but sigh, got some hamper instead of a medal. dang. haha but oh well, better than nth i guess :/

had dinner with nomms. was good, caught up a lot with them (: aye, then headed to parkway macs with jason to do post celebration of ivie's birthday. HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY IVIE!! (: haha, only chilled awhle there though, didn't really do much except playing with fire. whoosh, bad bad experience. :/

then soccer this morning. haha, i seriously suck. lol, can't blame the weather though it was freaking hot to the max. haha, burned out after like 10 mins i guess. haha, weak. but it was a good experience playing with such good players, totally different playing with them than watching and commenting from the stands. haha. well, at least i realised alot of things about myself from the match. aha, and the skin from my knee got scraped, pus overflowing now. lol, was quite a torture having to walk back to vjc to shower, and it was even worse while showering. HAHA, was along in the toilet so could scream in peace. freaking pain! rah. oh then went back to odac room to treat, used alcohol swab. painest of all. HAHA! touch a bit, let go, scream for 10 seconds, then repeat. damn lah, made me sweat like free somemore. haha then took a 1hr 76 ride to amk hub to buy LS's present. couldn't find much so proceeded to cityhall. quite unproductive i guess :/ ah, i think i'm bad at getting these kind of stuff, so no input. lol, sorry! ah but it was a bad experience also anyway, getting bullied at any chance possible, at anything i say. ): sadcase. rah. you guys deserve to go to jail for bullying. it's illegal. LOL, and something happened towards the end. shall reveal it soon. haha, it was interesting i must say. : D

ah, and sometimes i wonder whether i'm really there yet, when i think i am. sometimes i really hate myself for having to think so much about all these, i really don't want to, but i can't stop myself. and sometimes i don't know if i'm doing enough, or maybe doing too much. hrm, this is the hard time, and i guess i just have to hold on. and let God decide the best for me (:

and i managed to convince myself, right decisions bring out the best in people. i'm more of a learner from positive happenings than bad stuff. and i guess, odac really brings out the best in people. so far, the whole experience has been the ideal one, and i can't really ask for more. that goes the same for house as well, invest's in 2 weeks time. quite a pity we don't really cherish our remaining time as much as we should. it's starting to come down to me, the shitty feeling about something ending. ahhm don't like it. :/

right, okay shall not spoil a good day today. pretty shagged though. haha, think i'll rest early, MAYBE MAYBE there'll be a chance i can't go to school tmr, hopefully can't walk at all in the mrng. HAHA.

aye (:

this sunday,

2008-04-27T22:01:00.002+08:00

haha, getting the stupid lousy sunday feeling again. oh well, not exactly used to it already but sort of expecting it to come, and when it comes, wham.

okay, don't what i talking alrd! LOL, that's just one of the effects of the sunday syndrome.

lol today was a very unproductive day. pretending to think but ended just stoning and staring into space. haha. kept telling myself i'll start work the next half hr block, but in the end crossing that time by a few minutes, then convincing myself i can only start work on halfhr blocks. so in the end,i end up not doing anything! LOL. wasted sunday. hah. this is bad bad. i seem to have gotten the slacker's disease. nooooo.

just beginning to read some chem stuff now. probably not gna be doing anything else alrd, oh well! team event tmr, don't exactly have any pressure on us, but i just want to do well for myself. yes.

right, quite looking forward to the next week i guess. hopefully i'll make the most out of everything. haha damn, i realise my posts have been getting drier and drier recently. AHH! okay in a few days time, this phenomenon will change.

BYE

sucky saturday

2008-04-26T20:23:00.002+08:00

23oh no, damn. i've got a feeling the dreaded feeling's coming back again. just when i thought i could be doing without it for some time, at least.

these few days have been rather, weird. stuff that made me very happy, stuff which made me ponder about it for awhile, then eventually have to brood over it. i don't like myself. i'm too easily affected by bad stuff. just one is enough.

thus, i have decided to let whatever it is be. used to think as long as there's a will, you can do whatever you want. and achieve it. but i guess it only applies to some cases. yup, i think i should just be normal, and expect nothing else. ahhah, don't know how to explain that. oh well.

oh yes, and great job to all who went for the pinoy dance! not sure if we won it, but i suppose we should? since the producers alrd said we got the best timing so far. hrm, not really proportional to effort spent i guess. the other schools really seemed to have prepared a lot for it, whereas we only started proper one week ago, and total time spent pratising would be say, less than 10 hours? hrm, maybe it's the people who joined huh. you guys are imba lah. thought today would be the last day to have anything to do with this stupid event alrd, but most likely it won't be the case. heard PIs wanted to go all the way though, so it should be a good thing i guess? yeh.

ahh, a really really weird post again.

HAHA. sigh.

but at least i know there is what i call trust.
everyone seems to be doing well, i shall not be the lag.

thought provoking day

2008-04-26T00:01:00.000+08:00

today's a thought provoking day.

hrm.

GOOD/BAD DAY

2008-04-23T00:08:00.000+08:00

today, is the most non-academic tuesday i've had this year in school term. for once, the longest day in the timetable turned out to be a no-lesson day. lol. what a break huh.

ah the day started off badly right from the moment i woke up. woke up at least 20mins later than i should have, and in the end it was a total mad rush. 7 minutes to get everything done. ah, and i don't like the number 7 at all. damn. yes, so was late for pr's car. ah man, twice in such a short period of time. ahh. :/ yeah, arrived in sch only to be chased for assembly alrd. FOTY during assembly today. lawl, interesting. hrm den slacked in room till 10 plus. atmosphere there was ultimate lah. non-stop screaming one. a total different sight from what you'll normally see in bowling alleys. worse than night market in india! except fot the touting only. noise level can own india's night market. LOL. screaming NONSTOP. hahah, buay tahan sia.

team talk after that. nv had a proper one by the coach before. tabletennis last time was crap. lol. yes, could felt my hair stand when coach motivated us. sigh, but game today was bad ah. really really bad. totally let myself and the people down. ah okay not so much of the others, but myself. could have just concentrated more, pressurize myself more and it could have been improved so much more. ah, guess it was complacency as well. oh well, today's score was kinda unbelievable la. sigh, don't wish to talk about it alrd. come thursday, it'll revert to normal again! yes.

oh oh and the favourite part of my post, dedicated to odac! : D lawl. that's all.

haha okay whatever, just trying to keep myself happy luh, not exactly very easy after a really sucky day of lousy bowling and ultimate sian paggawa-ing. okay i didn't exactly paggawa but seeing people i know having to go thorugh so much pain is really, very very ouchful ): ah, shall not go on about it again. but must reemphasize this again, odac is really special! was feeling damn down over sucky bowling, so i comtemplated whether or not to go back to sch. and in the end i did, and it was one of the best decisions made ever : D quite weird, but just watching, WATCH ONLY NOT PLAY, just watching odac playing bball could take away the sucky feeling. although temporary, but it was so easy. destiny(big word), yes, destiny. i could have very well been at the next court, training damn hard for bball season, or outside the hall playing capt's ball for sailing, BUT NO! i was sitting by the side of the vball court, watching my very own friends(more than) playing comical bball and feeling so blessed over it. funny huh. but it's all meant to be (:

yes, so i guess there's really nothing much for me to worry about, any big small thing that happens, i know i have a backing. yay.

a very sucky day, to a rather good day. how?

(:

on your mark, 2 weeks, go!

2008-04-21T23:19:00.002+08:00

so tmr it starts. the start of a 2 week long "break". not exactly a good thing as shown in inverted commas. firstly, it's not really a break, just 4 days taken away only. okay not 4 days taken away ONLY, but damn, it's gna be 4 days! and yeah, it won't really be a break, i'm being devoid from something i like! hhaa okay, i like bowling too.

AH YES wm, you should stop now. it's not as if i'm disappearing off the Earth for the rest of my life. ah, i know it'll always remain here(heart) so who cares about not physically being there (: i hope. haha. ah, hopefully this eeky feeling will go away soon enough. fighting that stupid thought that i'll be missing something dear for a long time. why! D:

oh man but sadly, today hasn't exactly been a good day! sigh, recent days hasn't exactly been good either. ): okay maybe it's something to do with my mindset, too high expectations alrd i guess. haha. lessons today were quite good, could understand coz i prepared! time in odac room wasn't as desirable though :/ spent quite some thing trying to read quantum2 when my mind was somewhere else half the time. then stared at the word ODAC on the wooden board and thoughts/memories just flowed in like free. haha okay i'm too extreme! lol. please forgive me, i'm getting the feeling that i'm going on an expedition to the moon. ah then soccer match, VJC played well i guess. but today sort of could see they lack depth without their key players. overdependence alrd i guess :/ but hopefully come finals they'll reach their peak : D

mental game tmr! will need all the luck i can get. haha.

BYE!

VERY WEIRD DAY

2008-04-20T23:56:00.000+08:00

i conclude there is somethign really wrong with me and sundays. it just happens! haha. the day will feel empty as usual, and when night comes, it's weird feeling's turn. yay, and i'd like to attribute that to a lack of odac stuff for a day. HAHA. : D

right, my mind's being quite on it's own now, can't collect thoughts. haha, actually i think i'm not thinking now. kena the lousy flu virus, now have to live with it for at least one night, and it's making me drowsy like free.

so most of the time today was spent in my room. been a long time since i've done that. probably about 7 days. and it's a really ncie feeling to just hide yourself in the room and be anti social. at least it was productive! haha. hopefully done enough for one week. okay that's being too idealistic. hahah.

alright this is a very meaningless post.
i shall go sleep soon, yes (:

welcome welcome PT

2008-04-16T22:46:00.002+08:00

oh no, feeling really tired now, so short post! :/ but i think today's just a simple day, just like the rest of the other good days (:
and right now, msn's really being an ass, i can't stay online for more than 3 minutes! ridiculously idiotic ):

ah, so today, i was being severely bullied by people, which is a bad thing in case you don't know. verbal abuse, physical abuse, emotional abuse. ): IT WAS BAD. i shall have my revenge real soon, just watch out you lousy cronies! rah. so today we had welcome PT, i shld think it was quite tiring for the PIs, just that possible it wasn't enough to push most of them to their limits yet? i slacked most of the way, did baton(branch) passing, and dunked BEN(and gt dunked too-.-). then captain's ball : D and then dinner. really, nothing much happened today. haha. but like i said, simple things, small things that can make my day. yay, this is good, after the hell from ytd. : D

ah, this post seems to have no meaning at all. ahhh. haha, but for the sake of it, just whack.

oh and sidenote, i just got a sudden inspiration to be a masseur. : D

the great test

2008-04-15T23:18:00.001+08:00

if today was to be test of trust and bond for ODAC, there was no doubt the result would have surpassed any scale.

it somehow makes me wonder, probably for the infinityth time alrd, how this kind of thing can happen. it's like a toto ticket(err, hardest to win toto right), but this time you have to get 26 out of like E^99(infinity) correct, and that's what happened to us. probability 0.00000000001! but did it happen? yes it did. ah, it's really like those once in a lifetime you get to see this kind of thing, like go record books that kind, but i happen to be in that batch. whoo, i am a really lucky fella. and that's probably just underrating lah, sorry, my england not very powerful. ODAC's much better than that description. ((:

so damn, what happened today. we're gonna break a world record! -.- yes, we're breaking a world record. lol. it sounds quite prestigious, but the effort needed to break that record's quite proportional i must say. getting people down can alrd be a world record by itself. ah, shall skip all the complainy parts, not worth remembering. cheh. so last min, i was told, no matter what, 24 people. couldn't find enough ppl initially. felt bad engaging 25th batch for help alrd. it's quite ridiculous, this is indirectly gna affect their whole experience as a PI, and ultimately their term in ODAC. ahhh, how can, join ODAC to break records?! yes, break records of course, but has to be ODAC related what! not dancing with bamboo poles! lol. ok a bit ji dong now. so yes, 25th batch's down for this alrd, the worse thing i can do is to involve the 24ths as well, when they already have a hell lot to do, and this period shld really be spent cherishing out time tgt one. and involving them would mean possibly having them to come down and commit alrd. sigh. but judging by the situation now, it's more or less no choice that the 24ths have to go as well. BOO. ):

i knew as long as i asked, they would surely comply. and yeah, not really a surprise that the moment i asked, everyone immediately sprang up and got changing. omg, that was the ultimate. where to find anything like that elsewhere! so now.., what are the roles of the family class? heartwarming to the max. (: you guys are the best luh. yay, you all certainly deserve the THING. hahhaa, surprise surprise. : D

ah, lessons today were quite bad. except maybe for maths lect? LOL, one of the best maths lect i've had, best being poncho day! sat right in front, good experience! GGed during econs tut, but lucky didn't go, or i would have died the moment i stepped out of class. horrible time in the room. oh man, today's quite screwed up if not for ODAC! ahhh, really salvage things sia. was feeling like crap the whole time till almost when that thing ended. really bad. argh. hrm, today's somehow quite a bad day still. things didn't really turn out pleasant, so many things i wanted to do and could haev done have to be forsaken/lost the mood. sigh. sigh. tried to cheer myself up during outing(with agenda) at night, stay the way i wanted to be but it was quite hard. :/ but at least managed to maintain, was quite afraid i'll spoil the mood. AHHH, shitt. ://

but i'm just really thankful for what i have now ah. for you, and all of you and you. THE motivation now. really can't imagine not having known you all. ah, that's not really the point, so damn, don't think.

YES, so ODAC shall be only made up of ONE ODAC, and not lousy characters in lousy stories like Beauty & the Beast/Beauty, Snow White & the 7 dwarves or 3 Little Pigs, so whoever's guilty of including these names shall be severely punished! : D

yes, you guys make impossible nothing.

like a toto ticket. (:

day after perfect week

2008-04-14T23:07:00.002+08:00

hrm, today was a relatively good day! compared to past past days, but can't really be compared to last week i guess. but still, good!

lol, i realise nowadays, the way i post is really VERY weird. okay, maybe i'm more weird-sensitive now, everything that's a little bit weird it seems as if it's really very weird. i don't use to talk abt days! LOL. but yes, i guess it's good also, now that i don't think emo stuff as much, but rather refelct more on happy stuff, which is goooood (:

lessons were normal today! didn't go for physics lect again :/ really need to catch up on physics soon! weakest link. hahaha. ODAC room after lessons, yaye : D funny thing, was just trying to be funny so i asked the biz club ppl if i could take the munchy donuts cap. she said don't think can, bt didn't say no! haha, so i clipped it to my bag and walked around the booth for quite awhle, surprisingly, still didn't ask me to return it. so i happily took it up to the room. yay, it's quite nice lor. attempted to study econs, till people entered the room. LOL! there goes my study session. ahha. ODAC room's kinda impossible to study one. it's just so happening, every second you hear stuff that interests you, and everywhere you look, you'll be tempted to join in or look on more. it's that amazing! (advertisement!) totally not condusive for studying at all. HAHA. but it's really what makes the ODAC room, THE ODAC room : D

so half a day was spent in the ODAC room, with games. Big 2, Bridge, Big 2 again, memory game, handphone game, bla bla. NO study at all. LOL! sadcase. then was events! haha. jason ran super fast for his 400hurdles, 1:12! imba! haha. ivie ran fast too! but first time, so can't expect much. great job guys : D yeah then came 2248. LOL. all along thought we couldn't run coz of some discrepancy, but last min, mrseet told me to find a team, and we just had to compete with ourselves can get medal alrd. lol.then RC joined, floorball got their team last min, and SC just grabbed 4 people who were there to run. LOL. was good i guess, good competition : D though result could have been better, but it was good alrd! haha. don't really expect more : D damn nice ppl! still have 4X100 to whack. yes.

lawl, nothing much happened today alrd i guess. just good ol' odac times and more. quite lazy to lengthen it. but main idea's alrd here, so that's all that matters : D

tmr tmr!

the mark of a perfect weekend

2008-04-14T00:00:00.003+08:00

haha, purposely made this post start at 00:00, a new week.
why?

because this marks the end of possibly the best week ever. *screams. okay i really just screamed just now, at the balcony. it's kinda thrilling, you should try it too some time : D

ah damn, i stopped at the above paragraph for quite awhle, watched arsenal score, got me damn happy, then watched man u equalize, and then take the lead. it's like 5 mins left now, hrm, don't expect much. should probably be able to know the score by the time i finish this post. cmon, last gasp winner arsenal! but ah, not gna let this affect a potential happy day! oh, okay, this sounds weird but arsenal lost. oh well, title race over! but still, many seasons more to come. watch out for arsenal the nxt few seasons! : D

lawl, and it's really quite funny how match results affect guys. the minute full time whistle is blown, don't how many ppl start coming to suan me. aye, it's just 2-1! also not say like man u win title, that's it man, i'm supporting chelsea! HAHA.

okay back to today! hrm, somehow i was thinking about how powerful the mind is. and actually the heart as well, but the heart's a long story. HAHA. too bad if you don't know! yeah, so i was thinking how by changing your initial perception of something, the outcome will follow as well. let's take today for example. i'm not a big fan of sundays. in fact, i don't like sundays. but to end off the week as a perfect week (i realise i like to use the word perfect :/ like perfect pitch. LOL), it wasn't hard to make it a good day. imba mind. but it's probably coz of some weird overwhelming happiness pang thingy that happened last night which made it not so hard. haha. haven't been this motivated to do stuff for quite awhle.

so yes, today was rather productive! compared to the past few days this term. not say do alot also, bt at least finished up a few tutorials. yay. that's abt it for today i guess. it's just church, and keeping myself in the room doing work. very simple day, yet somehow, at the end of the day it just feels as if everything went right. hrm, maybe coz nothing much happened that's why it seems like it's a perfect day. haha. : D

oh and i got my 11:11 again just now. : D though i sort of cheated, but who cares! haha. the whole idea's already quite childish, and the fact that i believe in such stuff is alrd, er, weird. so.. ah, just get the most out of it will do. haha, if it comes true, it better do, then it's a bonus! : D

hrm okay, now that an imba week has ended, nxt wk's probably not gna be as good i guess. alrd have some stuff happening, which hopefulyl will be settled by tmr.sigh. better not have too high expectations! but still, nothing much changes, i'll still be able to look forward to something everyday. (: yeah, so no matter how sucky anything can get, as long as IT still stands, the day will still be pushed to count as a good day : D HAHA, advertise again. LOL.

haha, realise my posts recently are becoming weirder and weirder. more of anyhow whack alrd. it should be a good thing i guess, at least there's less unhappy stuff for me to think about. just good memories to cherish only. yay, i'm glad with what i have now. so please don't go down! up can, down no (:

haha.

scream!

Join the Happy Club anyone?

ODAC addiction

2008-04-13T01:04:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

hrm, somehow, it's really quite obvious to see what's missing today. don't need for me to type it out everything alrd right. haha. oh man, i think advertising companies shld come hire me alrd, whole day non-stop promoting the same thing. LOL. ODAC, be honoured! HAHA. and as i was telling some very very lazy person, i think these few days are somewhat the peak for this year i guess. emotional peak. we all learnt in Recession and Booms that there's a cycle to almost everything. what goes up, sadly, has to come down. so yeah, the most we can do is to take the most out of everything that's happening now. and possibly, maybe make this peak into a small plateau, small plateau to a plateau that never ends. haha, oh man, if only that's possible, i'd want to live forever. (:

top priority on 11:11 wishlist, to extend that peak! : DD

ah, if only wishes can be added, intensified, then i don't mind like waiting till abt 11:10 everyday. then turning away from the clock, and after a few seconds, "accidentally" turning to look at the clock and make 11 wishes. provided the 11:11 thing works first. haha.

HAHA yes i know, advertising companies, you can come look for me now. my contact number is.... yes thank you. LOL, suddenly got reminded by all the funny modelling and escort companies i used to call to arrange for job interviews. okay not impt. HAHA.

hrm yes, about today! woke up late yet again, despite falling aslp rather early last night in from of my com. woke up feeling totally numb in my arms. LOL. can't imagine how i managed to actually slp like that. cool. haha. then met brocalvin (i know you want to see this) on the mrt and went to collect the plaques. oh oh, and we decided to do something nice the 24ths. HEH! it shall be a surprise till that day. (: haha, quite excited abt it. headed back to sch, hid ourselves in the odac room, and slept continuously for 4 plus hours. LOL! imba. ODAC room's really damn nice to sleep. adding to the fact that when the lights were turned off and it was raining outside, so it seemed as if it was night inside. and the wind howling a little, shiokkk. only managed to complete binomial tutorial, then went to look at lynx cheerleading. aye, they're good! haha. ah, and that reminded me of my own cheerleading times. ahh, miss those times. hrm, a bit of trouble now though :/ hopefully we're able to come to a common agreement fast. ahh, not good ):

so yes, today's a good day even though something's missing. but a good closure ensures that it's a good day.
final verdict: *pang* I declare today, a good day. Court dismissed.

oh oh, and this is what i found on wikipedia about addiction.
Addiction was a term used to describe a devotion, attachment, dedication, inclination, etc. Nowadays, however, the term addiction is used to describe a recurring compulsion by an individual to engage in some specific activity, despite harmful consequences to the individual's health, mental state or social life.
Psychological dependency is a dependency of the mind, and leads to psychological withdrawal symptoms (such as cravings, irritability, insomnia, depression, anorexia, etc). Addiction can in theory be derived from any rewarding behaviour, and is believed to be strongly associated with the system of the brain's reward system(as in the case of cocaine and amphetemines). Some claim that it is a habitual means to avoid undesired activity, but typically it is only so to a clinical level in individuals who have emotional, social, or psychological dysfunctions(psychological addiction is defined as such), replacing normal positive stimuli not otherwise attained (see Ray park).

Very very apt, ignoring those parts regarding drug abuse. thus, i conclude that i'm addicted to ODAC : D

ah, jaw pain.

i love you, odac.

11:11 coming true?

2008-04-12T00:20:00.002+08:00

today was a higher order day. many many many things happened and need to slowly think through it to fully comprehend the whole of today's stuff.

LOL, okay that was just trying to make it sound cheem. but ah, today was very eventful, super mixed feelings, most of the time i don't even know how to feel-what's the right feeling i should adopt, what i should do abt what's happening and whether what i did was most appropriate. AH, but eventful also meant meaningful events, and overall, i thought today was good! at least it ended well, haha, a nice ending just sums it all up (: good day : D

morning was rather agonizing. had trouble waking up coz slept quite late last night, in the end pr had to wait for me D: oh no, i'm not used to being late! hrm, the whole of last night i didn't feel much abt pw one, but this mrng, weirdly, the feeling kind of crept up to me, and lingered all the way throughout PE. smemre halfway during PE(pure conditioning-.-), MrSeet walked past, saw me, and if i'm not wrong said i got a C for PW. haha, no initial reaction(LOL!, thus rate of reaction =?), but just took some time for it to sink in, then immediately felt damn shit, though i somehow thought that either i heard wwrongly or he's just being his usual crappy self.

but yeah, wasn't the case la. sigh. finished PE, walked to ODAC room, met ppl along the way who didn't do very well for it :/ oh man. then got a call from brocalvin abt the results. sighhhh, don't know to feel happy or sad. but i guess the sad component sort of overwhelmed the happy completely. PW is really stupid! people who outright deserve their As don't get them. sucks. and what's mroe, KL! ahhh. really felt damn terrible. sorry if i acted weirdly! i really didn't know what to do then. :/ very very unjust.

so maths lecture after that was really weird. that one period felt terribly long. could barely think straight. dang. hrm, but hopefully it's all over, very cliche but there really is no point mulling over it, can't change the outcome anw. yeah :/

then left sch for NS checkup. journey there was good : D and the whole checkup, LAWL! i kind of enjoyed it lah, especially the psychometric tests, damn amusing! feel like doing the test again. LOL. yay, and i'm in PES A. then back to school, for capt's ball! easily the remedy for anything bad. dno how, but can only think of 2 reasons why capt's ball(such a simple game) can be SO FUN. company, and the company? in other words, ODAC. needless to say, the company really intensifies the fun factor. every capt's ball session is DAMN GOOD. without fail : D hrm but stuff happened during capt's ball. some stubborness and er, over resilience to not eat made people fall ill. :/ HAHA. what defiance. : D AH, but other than that, coming back all the way to school, always the right choice la.

LOL, i think my recent posts sound damn propaganda-like, but heck, it's up to you to interpret and accept! don't believe your problem. haha : D

yeah man, times like this never fail to keep my high maintained. happy luh. hrm, maybe i'm a litle paranoid but i just thought this period is really critical for us. with weeks to come, exams nearing, the whole mood will inevitably change. so now while everyone's nt really into the mugging mood yet, spam and collect the experiences!

i'm convinced now that days like these are just out there for us. as long as we want it, there will be NO problem in getting it. so yeah, three cheers for good days like these! : D

how do wishes work? for all that matters, 11:11 doesn't seem so much like a fallacy n ow (:
come on man, grant me just that only thing i ask for.

importance of a closure

2008-04-10T23:48:00.003+08:00

today i realized how important a lasting impression is.

you can have the best happenings in the day, but i guess in the end, it's the closure that will ultimately determine how you think the day has been like. been having quite a few days like this alrd, but i think today's quite an apt example to give.

the whole day would probably be one of the best i had. kind of enjoyed lessons even, i don't know why. then when lessons ended at 1210, was already looking forward to the rest of the day. ate with class, went to the room. had a bit of cheap thrill coming up with some aliteration thingy and getting high over it. LOL. chilled abit in the room for awhle, it was one of the better after-lessons-afternoons alrd. (: then did up a bit of the vgems thing and went for the meeting. settled most of the stuff, yay. then went for the match against MI. was quite disappointed tedrid couldn't play(sick), but he took it easy so i guess it was okay. in the end match was postponed due to the rain, SAD. had one of the highest evenings after that. it was somewhat similar to last thursday's bouldering session. it was damn good. even taking down the scaffolding and keeping the parts in the store could be so enjoyable. the feeling was quite undescribable. very very blissful. we're really special. don't deny. the high carried on all the way to the room, and we did crazy stuff as usual. it alsted for quite awhle. then came the bad closure. hrm, don't know how to describe but it just didn't turn out well, quite a waste for such a day imo. but maybe it's only that i'm thinking too much into it, which could be true most of the time.

maybe the more correct approach would be just to acknowledge that unhappy moments are to be forgotten? i want to, but is that against human nature. hrm.

but still, today would be on the tops of the best days i've had. just wish days like this would not stop coming.

PW results out tmr. don't know if i'm feeling anything at all abt it, bt i don't think i am. just i'm numb to the 2 sickening letters alrd? hopefully, tmr will be a good day, for all (: NS checkup tmr too. leaving sch after PE, or rather after PW results. hrm. may everything go smoothly! still looking forward to captain's ball in school! yay : D

ah, if only wishes could come true that easy, there'll be no point making wishes. 11.11, are you working?

somehow feel this song's very apt to what's happening now.

Melee
Can't Hold On

Someone cries and it washes the street with tears
But when they are mine, they collect in my head for years
Rain or shine, still I'm standing on all I said
'Cause it's in my soul, carry on when the feeling's dead

But if you can't hold on
Let it go and come back in your heart
And if you can't hold on
Maybe it's not time for you
And if you can't hold on
On your very last try
I'll be there in the morning to pull you through

Someone dies late at night and I never know A
nd even if I did, so afraid of the face
I'd show I feel trapped and enslaved to this dark contrast
Need a feeling now, give me something that's going to last

I want to be free
I want to be free
I want to be free
Yes, I want to be free
I want to be free
Yes, I want to be free
Oh, I want to be free
Yes, I want to be free

You say you want to be free
But you can't fool me
You say you want to be free
Oh, but you can't fool me
You say you want to be free
But you can't fool me
You say you want to be free
Oh, but you can't fool me

Oh, and if you can't hold on
You can't hold on (Can't hold on)
You can't hold on (Can't hold on)
I'll be there, I'll be there

Oh, and if you can't hold on
Let it go and come back in your heart
And if you can't hold on
Maybe it's not time for you
And if you can't hold on
On your very last try I
'll be there so you know that you're not alone

by the way, this is a really good video.

ONCE AGAIN

2008-04-09T22:48:00.002+08:00

the good times are back!

okay turning point's mainly because 400 was postponed. LOL. stupid reason but it really made my day! crap, i bet you'll be thinking i'm such an idiot bt i have my reasons lah. many what ifs. blah blah, main thing's that it's till nxt tue that i have to run so yeah, just whack, last place also got 1 point! LOL. and tmr's relay's cancelled too : D bestest. everything regarding sports day seems to be going well. yes ah! haha.

can't imagine how sucky i felt almost the whole day before the race. how retarded. ah mine small thing also like that, really pity sportsmen who train their whole life but suay suay get injured, there goes their whole training. really quite a sucky feeling to be injured. :/

okay lousy injury stuff aside! survived lessons again and really looked forward to ODAC stuff to salvage the day! pity i didn't get as much of it as i could. my mind kept wandering off, most of the time checking out my hamstring hoping it'll miraculously recover. hardly even ran at all during captain's ball. it was really bad! but still had fun lah, anything related IS : D left quietly halfway, don't wan to spoil the mood. ok i think i'm quiet bad at hiding emotions. haha. then news came, no heats! LOL. yay. round 2 of capt's ball afterwards and it was shiokkk! damn happy and high. spaced out in the room afterwards. my phone ran out of batt! HAHA, sorry defiant child, another day! : D maybe it's a sign that you won't be able to beat my highscore so my phone thinks that you shouldn't get to play. yes. : D

dinner after that. short but good. long bus ride was spent thinking again. nvm, it was therapeutic, i like.

overall, today was a great day. hopefully days like this will not fail to come freely!

yes ah. (:

motivation lost

2008-04-08T22:54:00.002+08:00

i survived tormenting tuesday!

that doesn't mean it was a good day though. sort of enjoyed today at times, but towards the end it was terrible :/ surprisingly, i paid attention to all lessons today! lol, great accomplishment man : D eh okay, slept for AWHLE during econs lec, but probably didn't go thru much dur that period. yes i know. was damn glad lessons ended, it meant ODAC!

ah, relay's cancelled for the (2,2,4,8), but 4X100's still open! okay nt very impt. ran abit with4 of the guys. did 2 time trials, timing wasn't good, but tmr willbe better! just whack just whack : D rained afterwards, qutie relieved coz i wasn't prepared for 400 at all. haha. so tmr will have 2 events, WHACK. went back to ODAC room, and spammed games like free. lol. it's the gaming season now, cannot help it. was until when we were abt to leave, suddenly just hit me that what i thought was keeping me strong all along could actually just be my own illusion.

the feeling kind of sucked. okay it sucked quite a lot. nothing much i could do. another thinking day for me. recent days haven't been that good. maybe thursday set a standard too high alrd, these few days just seemed to pale in comparison. but tmr might be a different thing, so there's always much to look forward to tmr.

i need new motivation now. sigh.

what has been keeping me in high spirits, is er, gone.
tommorow.

tired

2008-04-07T22:53:00.002+08:00

i feel tired, very tired. physically and mentally as well.
just when i thought it would be all over, then suddenly come shoot me with this. not that i don't want to do it, but it seems exceptionally hard now, now that i've sort of lost the drive to do it. i want to enjoy my remaining JC life!

lawl, sound extremely desperate over there. but it's kinda true la.

okay, ODAC stuff! yay, surprisingly Monday today wasn't THAT bad. i've always stereotypred mondays as sucky days, comparable to stupid sundays but it all went well today till the meeting at 5, which sort of spoilt my day. bt oh well, hopefully tmr's morning meeting will settle everything. HOPEFULLY. oh then joined the rest to watch VJ's match against HC. dang, tedrid got subbed out! talked to him awhle ago and he sounded so disappointed :/ ahh, you're still damn pro to me! your minutes played alrd damn imba, don't be sad! haha. nxt match can still perform : D oh oh, and Alex is the crazy imba la. who scores 30yard shots with such ease. damn cool damn cool. haha, VJ deserved to win the match la, no doubt. had much fun cheering for tedrid and the new VJ cheer too! haha, got quite high :/

and matt's birthday dinner after that. crapped like free. lol. THanks matt for the icecream! 2 more days till being legal! : D

sigh, tired.

idleness

2008-04-07T01:09:00.002+08:00

i think i'll die just staring into space next time(hopefully) during my old age.

lol. i spent hours of my afternoon just staring into the blank desktop screen, daydreaming constructively? there were more or less only 2 things in my mind. ODAC and God. haha, it keeps switching between the 2. could it be ODAC's THE gift from God himself? haha, could very well be, and i couldn't agree more.

and yes, just not ago i was just staring at my download number growing. FOR VERY LONG. LOL. today is really a very weird day. haha.

ahh, okay this post really has no meaning. lol.

TMR FASTER COME!

emo sunday

2008-04-06T19:46:00.000+08:00

if yesterday was bad, today's even worse!
gah, don't know if it's a sunda thing or a sunset thing. every sunday will never fail to get me damn emo. and when it comes to 6 plus(sunset in case you don't know), the effect sort of magnifies by a few times. dang, hate the feeling of something being about to end. D:
and to make matters worse, i'm using an emo playlist now. LOL. asking for trouble. ah but somehow i don't really feel like changing.

okay don't link, don't link. it is NOT going to end.
damn you, sunday sunsets.

today's mass was another reflective one. it made me realise how weak my faith actually is. not as if i'm not already aware but it sort of confirms it's true?
so generally today became Thinking Sunday. which took up a bulk of my time today. i barely touched any tutorial/ anything related to work! haha, deep trouble.

and i've yet to find out what's that mysterious missing thing that's making me feel so empty yet.
ahh, incomplete.

hopefully tmr will be better.

incomplete day

2008-04-05T20:39:00.003+08:00

today's an extremely incomplete day.
only reason i could think of is the lack of exposure to ODAC stuff. crap, i'm having withdrawal symptoms! ODAC is addictive. lol.

and in case you didn't know, today's the first free Saturday! Oh man, liberation can sometimes be a bad thing. best thing today was i woke up at 1, possibly the latest i've woke up in my life. then i returned to sleep straight after washing up. LOL. slept till about 4 plus. objectively my best day as a student in JC life with regards to sleep time. yeah man : D nothing much happened today. okay, nothing happened today. LOL. ahh, i have such a boring life, i should shoot myself and die. today was all about tutorials and tutorials, which was why i said nothing happened today. had abit of fun with Stats 1.1 thinking of lame answers.

seriously shldn't even have typed all these. waste of time! haha. days without ODAC make me feel empty.

Arsenal drew with Liv just now. there goes the title. D:

oh and being strong and staying strong goes a long way. mentally strong that is. i'll be behind you!

Through Glass

I'm looking at you through the glass...
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh, god it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever
Feels like home sitting all alone inside your head

i hate sunsets.

a thought to really ponder - 3/4

2008-04-04T22:24:00.000+08:00

yay, I'M BACK!
whoo, it has been a really long time. people keep asking why it's always the birthday post they see when they come here, eh, got meaning one okay! HAHA. And usually people will brush off meaningless reasons like having no time, or just losing interest to blog, but i guess it's quite true for my part.
haha but still, a start is a start! better now than never : D

yeah and you must be wondering why i'd suddenly want to start blogging again. i really admire people who're able to blog regularly. it really takes ALOT of mental determination to blog, okay or rather, some form of motivation to make you want to blog. (blogging has a really high activation energy) but YES, not really gna update much abt the blog, but just feel it with meaningful posts, posts from the bottom of my heart. in the end, who cares abt blog templates or whatever, it's the content of the posts that count right. (yes, i think so too!) okay back to topic! yesterday's bouldering experience has really left a super big impact on me. (elaborate why later on) and so yeah, it just got me seriously thinking ALOT, and i've decided i'm gna take down every single experience with ODAC. i really don't want to forget ODAC at all, and yes, ODAC means alot to me. ALOT (:

this wasn't the first time. just days ago when we went for our stepup2 movie the day after DARE, the thought of it ending just overwhelmed me. it sucked to the max. people around kept convincing one another that we're never gonna let our ODAC family disperse no matter what happens in future. yes, i really want that to happen, i'm more or less convinced it will happen, i believe everyone in the batch knows we'll never part as well, but it's just human nature to think of worse case scenario. WHAT IF. WHAT IF. gah, screw Murphy's Law! hahaha, hate it. but guess there's nt much point fighting a useless battle with myself on whether we'll stay together. whether or not we'll never part depends on every one of us, how much we trust one another, how much we are goign to trust this could very well be the best 1 year of our (mine for sure) lives, and why not let it continue?

so many many events have passed since my last post, big, major, pivotal ones as an ODAC instructor one as well. let me see. fund-raising, SIKKIM, ITC, B2B, OLC12, DARE. and these are just events that happened, not forgetting having something to do with ODAC at least once a day. yes, can't avoid that. i guess it's a bit too late to start right from the very first ODAC activity, too much to say as well, so i'll just let pictures do the job. but i shall take on this commitment to at least post whenever there's an ODAC activity(very very ambitious, hopefully it'll be sustained!), no matter how small, and regardless of whether it'll be a daily job. ODAC memories are too precious to be lost, and assuming there's such a thing called the Murphy's Law, it's definitely not too late to salvage the remaining days left, coz everyday with ODAC is a complete day.

so yeah, i shall start from yesterday! probably one of the greatest days in the year i must say. there have been many great days, like during break camps or when DARE finally ended.however it's just something really really special about yesterday that's unexplanable yet so powerful. i guess it's reliving the times when we know having one another's company is indeed the ultimate blessing you can ever ask for. it just felt so carefree and surreal.(it's definitely not exaggerated) why can't life be like that all the time. roar.

got held back by some vgems stuff so couldn't join the earlier grp, but made my way there with faizah and lemuel, which wasn't bad at all. haha. received some bad news along the way, but just tried to brush it all aside till the day ended. met up with the rest in the bouldering gym. first time there, and it was FREAKING nice! oh man. owns climbasia's by ten times? it was really big, had 2 levels and the best thing is that the whole ground's just mattress. freestyle! okay and one of the things that added to the shiokness was that i didn't pay. (LOL) started off with a few routes. surprisingly i was able to clear, despite hardcore PT the day before and being a sucker for climbing. haha, morale booster! but the routes were the easiest there i guess, so yeah, whatever, i still suck. lol. yeah, most of us got tired soon after and we started *owning the gym. owning means taking advantage of the fact that THERE WAS A CAMERA watching our every move and that we were the only ones in the gym. we(guys) started spamming freestyle moves, somersaults, flips, handstands, ontheair flips and practically just whacking whatever we could think of on the mat. girls took the centre stage with their (LOLOL) sushi roll thingy and some humpty dumpty stunt which was freaking hilarious. HAHA. still got dno what barney march. hahaha. the PIs kept peeking at us, throw face sia. and er, something trajic happened to my pants(thanks to not changing into shorts even though i had them). it's now in the bin. dang, i still do miss my pants. ahh.

i guess it's the whole time when we were freestyling did i feel that really special feeling. the freestyling wasn't all that spectacularly fun, but it's just the feeling of just letting yourself go and just whack that you get to feel the bonds we actually share. the close yet not close feeling. ah, it's just ODAC. left kfc where we had dinner feeling rather high. after effects of ODAC activities lah must be. haha. on the whole bus ride home, it was ultimate emo for me. couldn't stop reminiscing the times shared with ODAC. it's really imba to the max now that i think of it. i don't think you'll even get to experience that even in army or the best ever organization you engage yourself in. okay, at least that's how i feel. i sort of teared i think. wasn't because the thought of us having the small probability that we'll part somehow, but rather, overwhelmed by how good the whole ODAC experience has been. every time i change focus onto another event, it'll just get worse. ah, terribly imba. it's really the people in it lah. guess the best analogy to give would be that of MrSeet's jigsaw puzzle. : D

though today wasn't as good a day as yesterday. okay it really can't be compared to yesterday. but still, every ODAC experience is one to be remembered. had PT today! haha. ran 2 rounds arnd sch, then whacked one after that. timing wasn't that good but still, it was shiok. then had captain's ball! think we're getting there alrd, the title's for the taking! had drills training? it was good (: and yes again, every time we do stuff tgt, no matter how small they are, i'll just get the feeling of us being so close yet not that close. the powerful bond. ha. then went for dinner. short but sweet day, though it could have been much better, stuff that happened which i became sensitive about. but again, that's just another thing, which will take time. lol.

odac is indeed a life changing CCA, that's what we told our then trainees. can't agree more.

we should be called "ODAC, the way of life" from now no. haha. then under category of CCA is "THE way of life" ((:

the best ever.

best birthday ever(?)

2007-10-08T22:47:00.000+08:00

finally able to log into blogger. contemplating to change, then i don't have to keep posts in private, can just lock them.

seriously one of the most eventful birthdays i've ever had. so jam-packed with happenings right from the first minute (IMBA FRIEND!). didn't really end off very well but no doubt the best birthday i've had by far.

today just gave me an assurance that ODAC was indeed the best decision i've made. wonder what could have happened had i not participated in B2B. who knows what could have happened had i not been in Tiger, would i actually still have came here. okay i admit, the times in Tiger certainly hadn't been the best times i had in an ODAC activity, but like CH said, it served as an initiation step.

just days before OLC part 1, the day we got back our results. it wasn't too bad. but when i told everyone that i would be staying at VJ and taking up ODAC as a cca, everyone went "SIAO AH". that point of time, i was on the verge of just giving up ODAC. afterall, there were so many other ccas to choose from. i didn't really know anyone from Whirlwind yet, apart from Jolene whom i took 1star kayak with, and Arkar wasn't in VJ yet :X didn't know what made me go down all the way to suntec just to meet cw, jolene and elaine to sort out twigs -.- yes, outside Giant to be precise. sorted out twigs, and OLC passed just like that. wasn't the most pleasant of times either.can't me more glad to say that i've made the right choice.

the best times i've had as a Vj student was shared by ODAC too, not forgetting House as well.

really like to thank so many ppl, but in particular, HAN YEN KWANG CALVIN who came down all the way just to wish me in person at 00.00. damn dramatic. ask me and i would happily illustrate the story to you face to face. (: thanks so much for the imba box of gifts! and the card, imba.

and also (in no particular order),

Tiger for your strawberry themed gifts!

Random ODAC people for the soccer ball, NIKE-

LYNX HOUSE COMM for the Billabong slippers and the box of jelly+tortoise hankerchief + more

Daniel Ong for the CAT FOOD, THANKS AH! HAHA

dianne for the perfume. thanks a lot

rachel(QM!) for the tent message! shit but it collapsed when i brought it home, and i couldn't poke it into the styrofoam alrd! D:

Kaili and Huiyi for the imba 5 course meal!
josiah for the nice card and soccer boot!

and to everyone who sent cards and smses, thanks so much!

THANK ALL

tag replies

2007-10-07T16:25:00.000+08:00

whoo long time since i last replied tags!

faizaL: HAHAHA i want know her! intro me ah. "this is not a telescope, it's a pair of binoculars!"
shane: AHH YES YES super long time no see. okay set, one day go kick ball or whack ball : D
susu: ahh got fringe no fringe same diff! haha in the end still called hair. yes class photo damn cool i know (:
daniel: HAHA i want go your house again! can play pong pong. FISHING/BOWLING tgt soon!
calvin: imba friend (:
kl: haha you know what of service means meh! i tot u small girl. haha anw chiong ah! over soon
: D
sms: haha hello! long time no talk
xinrong: hello hello, yeah been long. haha yup thanks (:

farewell + openhouse over, signifying the start of onslaught of Monter R?
oh well

breaking point

2007-09-30T23:50:00.000+08:00

for weeks i've prayed for me to be closer to God.
the personal note on my phone didn't really help.
short prayers everytime i see that note didn't help.
saying grace bef meals didn't help either.

i won't deny thinking that religion is no more than a fallacy.
one where people devote themselves to merely something that would help them past their time.
i tried to change that mentality but the fact that nothing changed much just worsens things.

so yes, it's true that only during times of despair that you'll truly Feel Him.
it was the first time for dno how long i just broke down during peace giving. sounds like matt. ag. and i didn't feel ashamed at all, weirdly.
at least i did what i wanted to do, or rather what He wanted me to do.

answers, answers.

so apart from seemingly meaningless stuff on top,
PROMOS ARE OVER!

somehow overrated i must say.
the only point when i reached the point of being euphoric was probably only the first 2 minutes after we were dismissed. me, wayne and yk screamed. it felt quite good. haha.
actually i'd knew long ago this would happen, that i wouldn't feel much of a difference after promos, so much to the extent that some part of me still rather it be pre-promos period.
1 more wk from now, it'll still be depressing results. what for the 1 wk?

had class outing after celebrating jocelyn's birthday.
turned out quite as expected but it was still good to have such outings.
good start maybe? at least i got to know a few better.

farewell preparations ytd. hrm. no comments.

went to LS's hse today! haha had fun playing with arkar. okay playing the xbox.
"number of student's ordered:" LOL. i want to order students also sia. free labour.

welcome to post promos! where it'll be a diferent life you'll be having.
but at least i have brother (:

LOL

2007-09-15T13:55:00.000+08:00

Just read the newspaper. Home section. ODAC PEOPLE GO READ!
HAHAHA i think we're damn imba. we collected $1.1k in one day with just 26 people + 5 teachers!
Ngee Ann Poly collect $15k with 2500 people.
HAHA YES AH! : D

whew, end of a horror week. new happenings and realisations for me this wk. and i used the loggie for the first time this wk! proud of myself. hahaha
oh well, just wna thank specifically 2 people who have made it m uch beter for me. calvin and kaili. haha don't think any of them reads this blog though. just wna say if that i'm really appreciative of both of you. what's on next monday! haha. and also to josiah and arkar, thanks for all the concern (:

i don't like this. why does it always happen. the feeling just fades away when i know i've been pushed to my limits this wk. then i'll start to realise i've stressed for nth. lol.
valuable experience for the future perhaps.

ah going to school to study now. seeyou

100th post

2007-09-10T19:39:00.000+08:00

whoo, dedicated my 100th post to some PURELY useless rambling on how life sucks. lol.
but yes it does, so why not?

always thought it's damn stupid to get stressed over mindless stuff like PW. stress whole day, and in the end after it's over, you'll start to look back and think, what the hell you worried so much for. but strangely enough, this period of "useless stress" always seems to be coming back for more. i've stopped thinking positive over this.

the "why bother stressing over stupid stuff like this? after it all ends, you find that you've just wasted X strands of hair for nothing" concept doesn't work on me anymore. i can't psycho myself to think this way, though this line appears ever so often, ironically, from me.

work aside, things aren't going as well either. yes, i must admit the past wk of holidays has been rather productive for me, fulfilling to an extent. yet, there always seem to be something missing as i end each day. nevertheless, i'd still look forward to the nxt day, hoping something would happen, but just as a glimmer of hope presents itself forward, it dies off soon after.

angstyy post.
sorry faizah pangseh you today! at least company with siewhwee and ivie would have been better than me, grumpy me. haha nxt time!

hypocritical.

2007-08-26T01:22:00.000+08:00

so hypocritical.
why must it always be only when sometimes happens then something will be done.
and everything about saying what you really mean.

red moon coming soon.
is the world coming to an end?

invite me to your kingdom of heaven please.

so unjustified.

2007-08-25T01:54:00.000+08:00

i don't get a single thing about what's happening now.

it's just SO weird.
one minute you appear to be someone approachable and close,
then the other, it's as if i just met you for the first time.

i'm a disposableeee.
yeah.

2007-08-21T21:13:00.000+08:00

all it seems isn't what it seems to be.
well, at least it's almost over soon.

oh please, take me back to the past.
i'd made the other choice i'm sure.

stress not.

2007-08-20T22:23:00.000+08:00

a perfect day/example of how stress is actually unneccessary.

since mrng, the onslaught of stuff to do just keps building up. plus the badge thing. argh. wednesday faster come man. i have no idea why the things you say just seem to hit me hard. oh man, this is weird. ppl getting stressed, yet i could do nothing to help. just thursday, i'll be FREE! wah shiok, can expect it to be like the feeling of euphoria of post- promos : D

argh, anw througout the day i just kept thinking how sucky the day would be. true enough, at 4, most of the teachers we arranged to film the video were not free. BESTEST. i really wanted to give up at that time. the feeling of helplessness. argh and knowing everyone else is busy, just felt like shit.

but God just had to prove me wrong time after time. went to icomm rm to see what we could do abt the vid. and help came (:
felt much comforted after that. I DON'T KNOW WHY. the peculiar yet familiar feeling.
called ms tan and was told tchrs would finish their run at 5.15.
waited till abt 6 for mr tan to finish running.

it was a wait truly worthh waiting for. pe tchrs rock. hhaa. thanks for being so sporting. vid's gna be a blast man. confirm (:

ah please end quicklyy. so many unsettled stuff. argh.

power of friends

2007-08-19T22:05:00.000+08:00

the power of friends.

this whole week has been an emotional rollercoaster for me. (haha okay not so bad but along tt line)
and if it weren't for some people i wouldn't be certain if i'm still able to type this now.

lol obviously can't type, it wouldn't make any sense anymore.

ah i just feel blessed to be associated with these ppl. i know not everyone reads this or are even aware of this blog.
but if you read this, you know who you are, thanks.
there's probably nth i can say to make up for it.
i just feel indebted to you guys. haha and the "we're in this together" thing doesn't work on me, i'll repay you guys some way or another.
action speaks louder than words. after this whole thing's over, when there's a time when i have nth to do anymore,i promise, the time will come.

oh man, this sounds like some "i'll repay you" thing. it isn't supposed to be this way. ah, if there's one i must never forget, it's God. it's just so magical, how everythign's/the world is structured in such a way that it's all seperated, but yet once you piece everything together, it'll just form one perfect picture.

i think i need to manage stress better. i just wonder how ppl like calvin handle stress. the times i've seen stressed would be equivalent to the number of white hair i have. (Note no "S" in hair) my idol man. thursday wasn't a very good day. i expected much worse, yet it still turned out perfectly fine. of course, with the help of budders. after each day of last week, it just keep me thinking. how it was possible to feel so stressed throughout the day and yet after everything ends, it isn't such a big deal after all. the past week wasn't the only time it happened. in fact everytime it's over i'd look back and reflect, thinking how foolish were to feel so stressed.

my point: i must try to curb my stress. be some anti-stress advocate or sth, though i still suck at the art of anti-stress-ing.

ah the nxt time i'll update is probably when keely wins CSS. (hopefully (: )

HAHA till then..
HOUSE ROCKS. (:
AND ODAC TOO ((:

three cheers for the majorly screwed

2007-08-14T23:20:00.000+08:00

three cheers for the screwed.

i'm just really glad that i'm able to go through this period of hell with an imba friend.
haha i think i've nv come across this kind of friend ever, and i doubt he even reads this but i jus wna say that i'm really appreciative.

YOU ROCK.

and to many others too who have helped in one way or another, thank you.
thanks for being so understanding too. the ultimate suayness i must say.

and with that, i would like to say,
TO HELL WITH THIS WEEK!
and probably the next too.

so that brings me to hell weeks, and 39-14 days to promos?
great.

happy times

2007-08-05T17:58:00.000+08:00

yay,
field commemoration's over
reunion's over
interhse games are over except for bowling.

nxt up nat day.
then it's all the way to promos,
till 3 days later then farewell!

just happy we had that small but meaningful talk on friday.
cleared up all the misunderstandings
let's all work together now!

field commemoration on friday was a success.
considering how much time we had to plan it was good!
being on top was damn fun too. the jump shot esp. wl the effect's like seeing fireworks X5. if there was a video u could have heard me gasping.

reunion ytd was good too.
just too bad that many things happened dur the process of planning and the event itself.
and jiaqian lost her phone. 2 phones in a week if i'm not wrong. ah

glad everything's over nw.
have to work to make up for what's lagging behind now.
chiong ah

2007-07-10T22:28:00.000+08:00

perhaps i should start on a hiatus soon.

ah okay take away that perhaps please.
i wna get things going fast.

i think i'm having a very negative mindset now.
since when studies in year 1 isn't important. plus all the talk about "you shouldn't study during the first 2 terms" and "wah all the muggers spoiling vj's image".
dang. and ironically, won't we spoil vj's image even more if we don't study?

fine, weekends only now.

wanted to reply tags ytd but decided not to as i'd really sound damn diff if i did.
ah screw it la.
i'm really thankful fr all the tags anw, just don't know how to reciprocate.

interhse soccer today. haha just as expected. quite screwed coz many ppl couldn't turn up. soccer floorball training and all. but i wna thank 06s48, 06s53, 07s53 for coming! really grateful for these ppl who're willing to take time off to participate.

ah why am i such a failure.
why can't i do the same.
this sucks i suck.

had to form a team with some other ppl in the end.
mao kenneth(i think) zhangyang daniel kinchi MR CHOW SF

haha we were that desperate tt we asked mr chow to play for our team.
lol we lost 2 matches and drew one bt i think it was one of the more enjoyable matches i've played. no pressure. haha.

looking forward to interhse man. (:

ah i must go now.
bye

2007-07-09T22:18:00.000+08:00

a timely reality check indeed.
the thing now is to take this wakeup call seriously.

i saw the tag.
mum:"so what if u become successful in one aspect. once u fail another aspect of ur life, u are still a failure"

i'm very sure it can't be my mum coz i'm very very sure she doesn't know my blog and very very very sure she doesn't know how to tag.
i'm not gna find out who it was either.

but i guess it kind of emphasised that point really.
and today she sort of reiterated the point again. it always revolves around this issue and i'm starting to see it beoming more and more true. but the thing is i can't possibly stop whatever i'm doing right now. ah i just hope that everything will just equal out, but is that possible?

Do your best, let God do the rest.

time to work towards that motto now.

sigh. i'm really sorry for being so emo during the later part of the day just now.
it's just that i've nv felt so shitty bef. not used to it.

but i'll get over it.
but i've overcome this.
but i'll conquer my weaknesses.

big talk, big talk only wyemin.
like what i said to sheena, i really hope all this motivation thing won't be shortlived. what for talking all this bullshit nw and start playing like free again the nxt wk.

HEY PROMOS ARE IN FREAKING TEN WEEKS!

solution: display midyrs on my table.
should be a fool-proof solution eh.

ah ok enough of emo shit.
had odac phototaking today. was quite bad. we took really long and wasted yijek's quite a bit of time. but he's really some nonsense guy. kept saying the same stuff over and over again. haha spastic man.

then chionged for lib quiz. lol it was really successful. but i think credit goes to the planning, how they made it so competitive and interesting and all. but i think if the ppl who joined weren't that enthu it wouldn't have turned out that way too. mad rushings here and there. can't believe i actually got so high during the quiz. sigh.

used to comment that's how ppl destress and how "scary" it was to know that someone is actually faking a high.
guess it has unknowingly become my way of destressing. wah sucks. i'm turning scary.

then went to vs to help kaili cut sponge leaves. it was real real bad. why can't i just force myself to unemo that time. argh. make it seem as if i'm some big shot walao. and the reason why i was reluctant to go at first really conspicuous.
eh wth, what's happening la.

so many things left unsettled.
so hopeless.

ah i'll just end it off here.

Do your best, let God do the rest.

another almost perfect

2007-07-02T19:50:00.000+08:00

had another almost perfect day today.

woke up real early in the mrng for odac meeting. ppl from a pe department in some pri sch came and shared their experiences on Sikkim. walao the pictures they took. i really wanto go! sian i just don't really look forward to the CIP part, unless it's interacting with the ppl there. heh.

and the thing is i asked my parents and they say ok! wah bestest la. really hope there'll be ppl going man. seriously won't be fun anymore with ppl not being able to make it.

went for spring cleaning after it ended at abt 10.10. settled stuff regarding invest, farewell, reunion and Sikkim. ah hope everything turns out smoothly man. spring cleaning turned out quite fun. haha. realised lynx only had very few stuff, compared to aquila. lol! settled store quite quickly, then went to den to help out a bit. carried boxes down and finished soon after. nice. haha. meeting's postponed to wednesday too.

slacked till abt 3 in the canteen talking cock and everything. hanged out with cheerleading ppl. haha. went to vs aft that. anticipated something much better than the turnout just now. the disgustingly long walk to vs in the sun was definitely not worth it. but again, the company saved the day again. and we did the vending machine thing! haha tedrid the vending machine hacker. lol.

ah, another example of a simple yet very much enjoyable day.

I WANTTTTTTTT.
argh

please tell me it's gna be okay
if only ah, if only.

END OF MYES

2007-07-01T22:53:00.000+08:00

it's the end of midyrs!!

okay that was thursday, 3 days ago. -.-
that just goes to show that i really have no time!
gone are the times when i can just stay up late late into the night and hack down on my keyboard killing stupid monsters in games.

i can't do it anymore.

this isn't supposed to make me sound like some pathetic old fogey or something. but really, odac and hsecomm is pushing me to the limits.

and i thought the period bef June OT was one hell of a hectic period. but i'm very sure what's coming up would be one hell of one hell of a time. now got 2(one hell of), means worse la.

anw for the nxt 20 weeks, u'll see me becoming some mad dog. sometimes i wonder why i chose this kind of life. and what my mum always say sometimes hit me hard.

"so what if u become successful in one aspect. once u fail another aspect of ur life, u are still a failure"

i used to argue my way through, but now i realise, it's really damn stupid of me. what she said can never be more true.

i really miss the dunman-ish VJ life i had the start of the year. i know now's a little too late to say all of these but i just have to let it out man. how life used to be so carefree last time. i had practically no stress that time. and now, it's all diff. haha.

i recall 2 days ago on friday when we went back to dhs for a exSAP v DHP match. i wasn't looking forward to the match actually, but more of the company and just plain old crapping with the same few. it's just so easy to talk. blurt out any random topic and u get at least 3 minutes of non-stop blabbering of that. and mind you, 3 minutes is in fact a lot. and considering the fact that we are not not random people, heh.

the match wasn't as good as i expected. firstly because i was called quite last min so i didn't really know much about what's happening like i used to. so i just went there, joined in and whack. haha. ah also because of the damn imba pitch la, lumps of rocks here and die. HOW TO KICK?!

haha in the end we drew 3-3 with them, including a super comical last 20 minutes, or rather 2nd half. cramps every 30 seconds. lol. some ugly parts too, shan't elaborate.

in the end we just stopped the match coz of the rain. but after that 14 of us went to laupasat for dinner. it was bliss. haha. the food wasn't the best i've tasted but the thing was we didn't mind spending our time there with the company of one another. left the place at arnd 11. we actually took photos there too. haha. ah if only everyday in life would be like that.

but now i can't. midyears hasn't been very smooth sailing. in fact, it's the most unprepared exams i've ever taken. all my life i've never gone into the exam hall with nothing to remember. ha i don't know what's happening now man. and the thing is i don't even feel the urge to do my tutorials or start piaing now, even after knowing that i may very well fail my midyears.
i do care, but i just don't have the motivation to study.

shall see, when the red marks come flying all over my face.

and now there's year end OT to ponder about too. 18 days. i'm very sure there's gna be lots of controversies over this 18 day thing. it's already so hard to get ppl to go for a 8 trip, and now it's increased to a whopping 18 day trip, climbing a 5+km mountain on top of that.

i've already got consent from my parents but it certainly won't be as fun going there with only half the odac batch present. hah.

for now, all i can hope for is less outings! so i won't miss out on much. haha! such evil thinking. lol. ah, just have to brace myself for the upcoming events.

i'm gna be a windsurfer and take down all you waves man. go die.

SSSS

2007-06-23T22:38:00.000+08:00

So, how many marks for an S?

today is a failure

2007-06-15T16:32:00.000+08:00

today's a failure.
oh man

MYES MYES blues

2007-06-14T21:45:00.000+08:00

it's funny how i'm choking to find time when now it's called the holidays.

it's like you're given just so much freedom and time that many a time you don't find yourself squandering all that opportunities to do something concrete, something that'll do yourself proud in the long run. (yes, IN THE LONG RUN. walao bloody term.) then when the day has past and you look bet and reflect on what you've done for the day.

you say " HEY!(hongkong accent)" and all your so-called opportunites are long lost.
it's a scam i tell you! it's a scam!

there's never going to be a REAL holiday man i tell you. they give us our holiday to make us feel guilty. then when sch reopens,

you go" HEY!(hongkong accent again) did one month just past? OMG(hongkong accent, it felt like 3 days. "

i know it's a really bad illustration but it's always like that. seriously, i think holidays suck. it's like some mirage lah. when you're feeling super thirsty for something(rest in this context, a break from all the shit), you go to it. or rather it comes and you realise, everything is just an illusion. and it only makes you hungry for more.

ahh i know i sound really angsty here but bottomline is

I HAVE NO MORE TIME!

holidays suck.

oh well, guess i just have to try and take it by my stride and go with the flow.
means study lah. -.-

haha let's see what i've done for the past few days after OT (:

Saturday

was slack day i suppose. didn't go out at all. basically coz i couldn't walk after OT. post OT syndromes. hahaha

Sunday

ATC!! hahahaha it was damn cool man.

JAMINFACHEL!
my team had faizah rachel jason and me!

haha lazy to write another long post on it man. nxt time just refer to faizah's post can alrd.

anw we did kayaking for the first station. WALKED to the 2nd station. it was daaaamn far away. the trailbiking section. HAHA butt massage. then waited for the river crossing part. den WALKED to IKEA field for some quite lame and exploitable station games. hahaha we exploited their loopholes in one of the obstacles. got quite ugly over there but nvm! then we walked all the way to pasirris park again for another station game. hahaha jaminfachel owned this game! WHOO! : D then was the last stretch back to the white sands field and again, we walked there.

aha who cares if we didn't win man. i had as much fun as i did get sunburnt! wah my sunburnt sucks. can't sleep for at least 3 nights. and my thighs burnt for another 3 days. whoo. but anyway i had the most memorable kayaking experience man. HAHA

ahh i hate to admit this la but i think me and faizah are the best kayakers. against all odds, we managed to pull back the distance lost coz we capsized and caught up with so many other competitors. even the markers were appalled by the speed we were kayaking at. it was truly, truly, imba. the way we kayaked. and there was this point, we even managed to get one of the markers to tell us the clue he was holding on coz we were too far to see. markers aren't supposed to tell us anything OR they can mislead us like the first one BUT, with our superb persuasive skills, we managed to pull a fast one on the last marker.

it was something like that.
us: eh what's the last picture ah!
marker: i can't tell you man!
us: oh thanks! okay our last picture is a i-can't-tell-you-man

that was kinda cool. and with the added morale boost from cheating the last marker and more morale boost from flashbacks of the sketch show, we unknowingly overtook at least 5? kayaks on our way back to shore. den we had our redbull. haha nv tasted that shiok.

that basically sums up ATC. for more information and other exciting incidences, refer to faizah's blog. haha

Monday

went out with hongwei and wayne to queensway. bought a pair of shoes. felt kinda cheated and scammed but nvm. at least i didn't come home emptyhanded. haha. went to "mug" at macs after that. was supposed to revise econs but ended up doing maths with hongwei instead. wayne left halfway.

nothing much alrd i guess.

oh and IKEA's restaurant food is imba! damn nice i tell you. hahaha i wan go there eat again man
Tuesday Wednesday

wasted the whle 2 days man. i spent my whle tuesday finishing up my post. HAHAHA i write posts damn slooooowly one. mug here and there. intervals. haha.

went to sch at 9 on wednesday for functions make up. at least there's one topic less to work on now. went for lunch at swensons then went to cage from 2-4. ultimate la. i only knew like 4 people there and most of the time i'm in contact with ppl i don't know. lol. bt the army ppl were quite pro. their teamwork was like. whoo. haha.

so in a nutshell, i wasted my whle 2 days. oh man.

holidays ah holidays.

TODAY
today was a surprise! haha went out early to town with family. went for lunch at triple 3 at mandarin hotel for lunch coz mum had 50% off vouchers. whoo, but it still costed 26. wah imba. but it was well worth the money man. everything was like super high class, quite uneasy sia. the first thing we saw was a huge choc fondue fountain and like one HUGE bowl of strawberries and marshmellow. free flow of oysters and sashimi and everything imba you can think off.

ahh shit it sucks to be blogging abt food. haha.
oh man nxt time when i grow up and make many many moneys den i can bring my family there many many times and eat until song song!

haha okay you can stop dreaming wyemin.

anyway after lunch we walked arnd. bought quite a lot of stuff. spent a lot of money today man.

and they're on leave again tmr! (:

so that means i shld start mugging nw and so i shall.
seeya!

if it seems like i've gotten over it and carried on.
it just means i'm doing it the hard way.
but i'm nt gonna succumb to anything
for all this is for the better.

OT OT OT

2007-06-08T21:31:00.000+08:00

whoo finally back from OT!

oh well, kinda ironic now. as much as i wanted to get down the mountain as soon as possible a few days back, now i feel like climbing it all over again. :/

and something calvin said dennis said really struck me.
"OT will end as fast as it comes"

and true enough, it's really that fast. 5 days had gone just like that. to think just days before OT i was thining how i was going to pass the 6 days of OT. but how wrong was i. weird enough i found myself wishing that OT will never end on the super VIP bus which we took on the way back to SG. things happened regarding this bus trip as well. shall elaborate later on.

just 6 months ago i was in Switzerland, the Alps area. and as we ascended the alps on a cable car, i looked down and i saw a few hikers climbing up the mountain on a trail. then i wondered to myself. "would i ever do it one day". but i recalled i quickly brushed away the idea and thought i was crazy myself to be thinking of endangering myself doing such "useless" things. but i was wrong. though Batu Putih is a far cry from the alps, it still took great amounts of courage especially at the few obstacles whr we had no safety rope and one slip would actually mean either breaking limbs or even dying.

32 people, including me. (in no particular order, just trying to see if i can rmb all the names. heh)
calvin
rachel
kaili
denise
darryl
arkar
faizah
huiyi
shihan
fanny
jolene
jason
sufiyan
josiah
chiaweei
ben foo
big ben
yanni
ivie
yongsheng
siewhwee
alex
zhanliang
wanping
matt
nazri
louis
dhilshad
syazana
jaclyn
jiaqian

MR SEET
MR GOH
MS NG
CHEWIE

whoo that didn't take quite awhile. haha. anyway these 31 ppl climbed a 2131m mountain. Gunung Batu Putih. we owned it. couldn't have done it without my climbing partner. but don't worry ah, i still hate you as of now. i hate my climbing partner. haha. : D

3rd - 8th june.
one of the most memorable 6 days of my life.

like calvin said, i don't think we needed this OT to bond too, but rather to reaffirm the bonds we alrd shared with one another. seriously it did. throughout these few days, it really pushed most of us to our limits, and as a result most of our true colours surfaced. the quieter ones got more enthu. and like ms ng said " our spirits didn't dip. not even for the slightest bit" i believe that's the main reason why all of us could have conquered the mountain. true, the teachers really pushed us like hell, even though we were really going at our 101%, they still continued to pressure us. at tiems we felt really wronged, lke they didn't understand us. but ultimately in the end, we realised if it weren't for their seemingly non-stop pushing and pressure, we wouldn't have gotten to the summit in just 2 days and got down again in only one day. we couldn't, we wouldn't.

3rd JUNE ( SUNDAY )

went for mass in the morning then napped for awhle at hme and reached sch at abt 3 for soccer date. haha seems kinda crazy what we're actually doing hours bef the big thing. but oh well, we did it anyway and i got a few NIKE AIR under my feet. too bad la, i asked for it.

played till around 530 when most of the other ppl arrived. did some last min packing of my mobile food with climbing partner. den josiah had to bigass indian pot on his bag. that took quite awhle. at first we couldn imagine having to do that everyday after taking out his stuff. but in the end, it still happened. all can i say is "josiah, you are imba." haha.

then there were pre-OT games organized by OT chiefs. didn't really joined it. haha. me and rachel went to triple check the equipment. cant afford to miss out anything ah. den sheng came aftwards. he was kinda sick and there wasn't much time alrd so i went to help him pack instead of joining in for the games. HENG ah. think they played some shampoo game and got really dirty. WHOO. but stupid wanping came and rub shampoo on my hair. walao she's freaky la! a true blue bimGo indeed.

oh den there was the halal food incident. faizah left a plastic bag of packeted halal food on the table on the other side i think. i took the plastic bag to her and was still doing some stunt thing. then she took out the first packet and there was like a hole at one corner. (HAHA one corner) and on the table there were like rice and chicken bones on the table. it's bones. just bones, meat co mpletely eaten.

okay anyway after the dinner we all took turns to use the staff toilet to take our last shower for quite some time. LOL we waited outside the staff toilet for awhle. did some random stuff with matt and zeri. took hockey sticks from the space behind the toilet ad got caught my ms ng. lucky for him or i would have died. haha. den finally got to enter the cubicle. i turned right and almost fainted. LOL. hanging on the right were a fine display of underwear. PE TEACHERS AH. hahahha. went down after that and whiled the remaining time away with carrom. MATT IS ULTIMATE IMBA. he can like hit in seeds like free. (no interhse carrom! nyehnyeh : P hahhaha)

after that mr seet and all the other teachers came down, including a few ppl from PACwest. and we first got to see CHEWIE. LOL. (you find that if you rearrange the letters and add in "a" and "i" you get. CHIAWEEI! okay sorry) this guy came and give us a small briefing on Batu Putih. kinda scared us at first. he said there were supposed to have more leeches than korbu. NEHNEH. but he also mentioned we're the first JC to ascend Batu Putih! whoohoo! okay then after that mr seet asked all of us to recheck our bags and filter off any unneccesary stuff. had our final equipment check and we were off! (on a Singapore Zoo bus -.-)

it was quite unbelievable how were got really really high the moment we stepped up on the bus. played games, sing song, play mahjong, FIX RUBRICS CUBE on the bus then in no time we arrived at the customs alrd. whoo got to use the automated one for the first time. hahaha fun. cleared malaysia customs too after that and soon we were on our way to IPOH.

sat beside CHIAWEEI on the bus and i couldn't sleep for the first part till YONG PENG. and no it wasn't because of chiaweei (duhh). kept thinking of what would happen if i were unable to climb the mountain. how i won't have the will power to push on. and how i would jus slip and fall down and die -.- seriously, i already had such a hard time doing the berkelah falls one while everyone were giving passing remarks like "walao climb this one damn waste time." or "this is nothing compared to Korbu man" . and i had a near death experience at berkelah falls thanks to beloved DS trainer. kinda regretted not getting any offroad shoes but oh well. thought for quite some time and we arrived at yong peng alrd.

4th JUNE (MONDAY)

got down the bus. a few of us felt damn buay song. unexplanable. just had that feeling. walked arnd and saw some flies feasting on the bread they were selling. felt kinda disgusted. then borrowed 3.50 from CHIAWEEI! and bought one bowl of chng tng. talked some cock den boarded the bus again. had this funny feeling on the bus again. it's like keeping a lion in it's den that kind of feeling. urgh. but anyway endured the ride till we reached our breakfast pt. didn't really feel like eating but just grabbed a bite. prata(shredded) with some watery curry-like-sauce. haha quite cool.

den it was a shorter ride up to the lorry-fetch-us-point. met our guides for the first time. they were wearing like crocs and canvas shoes. super imba. first grp of ppl went up the lorry and went off first. had a crash course on how to deal with leeches in that 40 minutes wait. then we got on the lorry along with the teachers and guides. had this pre-climb talk. haha quite cool. and sadly, that was also the last vehicle ride or last bit of civilisation we're gna experience.

did our last min preparations, took out 2 sets of clothes and there, we finally began our long awaited ascend of batu putih.

i got the shock of my life when we started man. my cool no-grip shoes started to fail me even at the first down slope. i started whining a little. (shit) but anyway got used to it after awhile, just didn't expect to bring me much greater hindrance later on. so we arrived at our first rest point, the river crossing part. didn't remember we were behind time at that point but according to the other blogs we were really slow for the first part. so, we were DAMN slow on the first part.

river crossing was quite cool. then waited at the other end for the other ppl to catch up. and me and kaili made our first half-bottle of iced(where got?) lemon tea! hahaha it was damn shiok lah. but it ran out damn fast coz we shared it with other ppl. but it was good to have just a few sips even. whoo. iced(where got?) lemon tea really helps boost the morale man.

then we continued up the path. this time it was much harder alrd. there were never ending upslopes. i know i have weak will power and this was when it started to kick in. there was this really steep upslope. and i had really good climbing shoes so it was damn difficult lah. plus all the stopping now and then, hahaha. was quite frustrating. but luckily there was kaili. haha. my outlet for all the nonsense i said. really made me feel better when she was there. argh, i know i shouldn't blame my shoes la, but at that point the only thing i could give an excuse for were my shoes. oh well. learnt a lesson anw. finally got up that steep upslope and it was down to more winding lengths of trial to cover. had quite a few rest points and got our order shuffled up.

lunch point at some slope. at that point i was really feeling damn shitty. kept whining to the ppl around me how it was the "saddest day of my life". it was like my first ever OT and it was so mentally straining. harboured that thoughts till dinner at night. lunch was quite sad. nono it's not the food Is but me rather. wasn't really used to the conditions yet so i didn't really eat at all at that point. just told myself to endure. it was quite cool too when we first used our ponchos for it's real function. lol.

carried on after lunch. kaili got rather pale halfway and i got damn worried. she kept rejected water from my hydration pack also. haha but after that with my persuading powers (yea right), we illegally made our own rest point coz the grp behind were too far behind so we decided to stop for them(yea right yet again). drank up and ate a little and she was felt better! yay! we continued and soon it started to rain again. had to use our torches to locate each other. quite freaky actually. the trial got really slippery and that was when i started to do the treadmill-like actions. HAHA sufiyan! it was 4 at that time and it was almost pitch dark. i asked the guide along the way and he said we won't be able to reach our planned destination (the cave) bef night.
felt really demoralised at that point. bt the rain sort of woke me up and i just tried to push myself to carry on.

there waS one point at which a fake message of "rest point" was passed down. it lightened up our morale for awhile. but after we realised there wasn't any rest point, we got really demoralised and frustrated. this kind of joke cannot anyhow pass down one lah! haha nvm, it's over anyway. a test of endurance, really.

finally reached the campsite (some open space just enough for 10 tents). it was pouring la. was feeling super shitty at that time bt i knew i had more important stuff to take care off. brushed off the shitty feeling and got things going. rachel and i called for all those with tents. we quickly allocated all the tents and started to pitch the tents. i think we did quite a good job, considering all of us being so mentally exhausted and overwhelmed with fatigue. good job guys!

whoo i'm really proud of us too. ms ng said we were comparatively more efficient! :D:D haha okay nvm. but it was the first real test for us la. though we make a big big blunder by giving mr seet the broken tent poles (SHIT damn paiseh), we still managed to handle everything . OKAY WHATEVER WYEMIN!

after all the tents were up we got down to cooking. me matt and zeri went down to the water pt to collect water for the indian pots and to refill water. the trip down was okay but with the indian pot half-filled, going up was really super back-breaking. but it was a good sense of satisfaction, knowing that the soup was our effort! (OKAY WHATEVER WYEMIN!) went down to refill water again. didn't know why the 2nd time down was much harder. returned up to the campsite and food was ready! shared a mess tin with matt and zeri. the food was really comforting lah! super well down all food Is! it was really good to have a warm meal when it was freezing cold. suddenly all our morale became quite high after the food. haha wonder food.

then it was mass changing session in my tent. my tentmates:
(HAHHAA FAIZAH 3 lines see! nyeh)
Arkar
Josiah
Sufiyan

walao i love my tent man! (haha but i love the ppl in the tent more) the deep heat mass rubbbing session, the jelly! (thanks sufiyan), the insightful comments, the random food, and most importantly the love. haha i rmb telling them that thay day was the saddest day of my life. it soon didn't apply anymore because of them. oh oh, and the highlight of the night! sufiyan took out 2 vitasoy packet drinks. then i started the CHEERS thingy. we did it and i dno why we went overly excited and squeezed out sme onto the tent. LOLOLOL! then we *screamed. the thing was we didn't know ms ng's tent was just behind us. got told off by her but inside our tent we were umchio-ing like madness. HAHAHHAA! then i asked for the time coz i wanted to talk till 9.59.59 then once it reached 10 flat we keep quiet. but too bad it was 10.04 alrd. the other funny thing was that we agreed to sleep aft awhle. then 5 seconds later. everyone started snoring (not me of course la, if not how i hear). damn cool! think i fell aslp aft awhle too.

5th JUNE (TUESDAY)
and no susu,yuan and faizah, nothing happened at all okay! i totally forgotten until you mentioned in my tagboard la! all that was infront of her was zhanliang and lots of vegetation. nothign else! don't talk nonsense! hahaha

sorry that was some inside stuff.woke up feeling super lethargic. high high inertia. but still unpitched the tent and quickly got ready. mr seet then gave us a really insightful pep talk. he said he had never climbed a mountain and not reached the mountain bef. and also if we fail to reach the summit by day we would have to spend an extra day on the mountain. i dno why but i think what he said really woke most of us up. "eh you all are allowed to encourage one another know" . that really triggered off what happened too.

immediately after we started, there were non-stop words of encouragements coming from everywhere. i believe that was why the guides said our group of ppl had the best teamwork and spirit ever. i couldn't agree any further. though there were some ugly instances like when a few of us got split up from the group in front and there were some frustration, but it didn't make our spirits falter.

we had to make up for 2 hours which we lagged from the previous day. even though there were less rest points on this day. the trial we had to cover were also much much longer and harder. there were also more life-threatening obstacles like the bouldering part to overcome, we still did it.

there wass also this point when the first 3 groups (incl me and kaili), ivie's and shihan's group were quite in front. and there was this point when we had to clear 2 mini caves. out of nowhere, we heard shouts from in front that there were hornets. though we couldn't really see what was happening, the tension was there. i really went down on my knees(hornet attack pose lah! don't think too much) and covered my neck. then the front groups called us to backtrack to the open area. after awhle the guide came back and opened an alternative route for us. we then crossed this bouldering thingy to the other end. from afar we could see ms ng and mr goh being badly stung. there was a super huge bump on mr goh's leg. wah damn poor thing. couldn't have imagined if it really happened to us. got me thinking for quite a bit. self-sacrificial man the teachers. but it soon changed when i heard ms ng muttering "why didn't it happen to u guys" when she walked pass us. didn't think she really meant it that way la but..

we knew the summit was nearing. there was this point it was just a flat open area on top and we actually thought it was the summit. in our hearts, we knew. we knew the summit was nearing. looking up we could see there wasn't much left to cover. we knew we were reaching the summit. our morale got really high. we just kept going on and on. we didn't care about the stupid mud. the splinters in our hands. the bloody thorns (grr). and on we trudged on.

soon enough, WE REACHED THE SUMMIT! whoo. there came this ecstatic feeling. we just exchanged high5s with one another. wah the feeling.. damn shiok. haha. then i had to keep my excitement coz i knew the tents were impt too. same routine again. pitched up the tents again, but this time we were really slow. haha. cant blame la, everyone so happy. and it'd be an ass of me to be a killjoy, telling everyone to have sense of urgency that kind of thing. but in the end we still pitched up our tents and the food ppl cooked our food! was quite messy at that point. everyone started camwhoring. den we had pasta! whoo it was quite shiok. then jolene decided to make this milo pasta thingy which tasted quite good actually. LOL. it was dark alrd. me josiah and arkar went back to our tents to change while they were having this reflection thingy. came back out and joined them.

it was really good la. the bonds we shared, can actually sense it dur the reflection period. all the exchanging of thanks. whoo damn shiok. finished up and retreated back to our tents.

we had our jelly before sleeping. ppl around our tent kept eavesdropping on us lah! but it was quite cool la, talking in the tent. the same thing happened. the other 3 fell aslp really quickly. dno why i always take a long time to fall aslp. but anw i did after awhile

6th JUNE (WEDNESDAY)

the coolest thing happened in the wee hours in the morning man. all 4 of us woke up at exactly the same time at 5. all of us were freezing cold so we decided to take out our sleeping bags for the first time.

woke up at 7. high inertia again. unpitched our tents. went to the "toilet" with them and saw a pile of **** in the middle of the road. walao. damn idiotic. took lots of group pictures while waiting for the guides to get ready. they took a really looong time and when we started to set off we it was alrd like 10.

wah this day of descend was really really bad. my shoes were whoo and my muscles were alrd aching like free. the first part we descended we took a really long time. we were supposed to take less than half the time we took to cover the same distance but for the first part we actually took abt the same time.

mr goh then gave another impactful talk. sped us up alot. from then on, it was all chionging. but the thing was, the trial never seem to end. after a long way down and some straight trial, it always seems to repeat itself. it sucks really.

we arrived at the fake summit at about awle past noon. it was really bad. we were super off schedule and to be able to reach ground zero by DAY seemed impossible. my muscles were aching like crazy and i didn't have anymore faith with my shoes.

there was this point at the vertical descend. i got a eally bad cramp while trying to look for a foothold. and mr seet on top was like "eh you don't xia suay (go ask arnd for the meaning) my shoes like that la". then i replied "i got cramp nw and this shoe super no grip" then he said something really hurtful "cannot climb still want blame shoes somemre" . walao i really cant understand what they're thinking la. cramp alrd still want rub it in. HAHA seething inside. (inside joke too)

oh well, at least it fired me up (in a good way la). there was this point i just chiong and don't care. i really wanted my lunch point, which they claimed was an hour away. haha and on t he way something really funny happened. kaili lost her front marker and behind our group, darryl's lost the group behind too(jaclyn's) so the 4 of us just lac lac trek to the lunch point. it was damn cool! (though wrong) there wasn't any pressure at all. the first time we really got to enjoy nature and just relac. haha.

then we finally reached the lunch point and it was 4. : had a quick lunch and our aim was to reach the river crossing part by DAY! we really chionged the remaining part. then came our final rest point bef the river crossing part. saw some ugly scenes too but nevermind. it's all part of growing. haha. the behind ppl were really quite far behind, at least 5 mins and i got super worried for them. i think i went mad screaming for them every 10 seconds to check if they were coming.

carried on to the river crossing and reached soon enough. whoo, never felt so happy with just river water. haha. collected a bottle of batu putih water. the guide told us we were just half an hour away from ground zero! elated to the max ah! and knowing there weren't anymore obstacles for us to cross, we got really high and just practically chionged our way out. got dark at some point and had to use our torches.

after what seemed like forever, we reached ground zero! haha i think the feeling was even better than reaching the summit. exchanged high 5s and hugs then we got worried again fr the ppl behind as it was really dark so we didn't know if they could have made it out not. anw all of them did. whoo happy happy.

had a head count then took a lorry back again to the campsite. i was super in pain i dno why. my legs didn't have blood and it just felt super shitty. i really regretted coz i missed out on all the stars thety claimed were like free and the emo talk. argh. wasted la. then the lorry arrived at the campsite. had to carry down the bags which was terrible. i felt like dying. lol. walked a distance tot he actually campsite.

this day was the worse of all. rachel wasn't here yet so i had to get things going by myself. got my act together and organised the tent pitching. we did. the 2nd group came and tent pitching was quite smooth overall.

got to bathe afterwards. couldn't really see in the super dark toilet so just tried to clean up as much i could. talked cock outside the toilet den went back to our tents. haha waited for quite a bit in our tents till food arrived! OMG the food was heaven la. didn't have such "good" food for damn long. plus coke as well.

had a small small impromtu gossip session (hehe) with some of the guys then retreated back to our tents. on our way back, another funny(okay it's funny for us but i don't know otherwise) incident happened. screams were coming out from huiyi's tent and apparently it was so loud till the guides(some distance away) chionged all the way to the tents. the teachers woke up too. according to them there was a leech and ms ng had to pull it out. bad incident.

after that we really went back to our tents. josiah and i had this competition to see who would sleep first. sufiyan and arkar slpt long ago. LOL. aiya i think i lost coz he slpt while i couldn't fall aslp again. it was bloody stuffy and hot and clammy and whatever you can think of. it just sucks. haha. i endured till about 2 till i couldn't take it then i unzipped the tent from the other side and stuck my head out. i tilted my head up and WOAH. there was tis spider the size of my palm or arkar's palm or nazri's palm. LOL damn freaky. zipped up the tent again and just followed josiah to the toilet. came back and fell aslp. dno why. it's just weird. lol.

7th JUNE (THURSDAY)

same thing again this morning. but had to hurry coz the bus was leaving at 8. packed up den chionged up the bus. after an hours' ride we arrived at the caving area. didn't really enjoy caving till the water part. oh and also the funny scultures part. LOL. took a few stupid pictures outside the caving area and left.

then we had our lunch! ZOMG. heaven X10 ah! it was a real buffet. curry chicken, hot dog, veg, drinks. whoo dman shiok. then we took a lorry to the white water rafting area. HAHAHA the stupid lorry trip! dhilshad made it seem like a game whr we had levels and bonus round thingy. then we had to dodge branches and leaves( real one not virtual) . sufiyan got a nose job. i got quitesick after seeing all the blood thus i didn't really enjoy the whole lorry ride.

WHITE WATER RAFTING IS THE BOMB! the highlight of the whole OT man. it was super fun! my group's name was POWER(from dhilshad). i got really high during the whole rafting session according to them. haha. damn fun what! what to do. : D

there was a briefing before we got down to the water. they thought us what BOOM-BOOM was and all the safety precautions, what we were supposed to do in an emergency and everything. then they introduced us to our group captain. HAHA. we had a really bad impression of him at first coz he was qutie stern and looked damn fierce. but as we went along he changed. LOL. people change ah cant help it. exhilarating to the max. lol. we kept cheering like mad and trying to do this whack the paddle into the water thingy. then there was a rest pt halfway and we tao-poked mr seet! HAHAHA. damn funny. a lot of nitty-witty details along the way which i shan't elaborate. it was just damn fun lah! the ride itself and the company. whoo. bestest.

took the lorry back again and this time it was more fun coz there wasn't blood anymore. whoo. the scenery was shiok man. then we arrived back again and showered. then another bus ride to Ipoh parade which we took turns to look after the bags. had dinner at mary brown. cheat money one. haha.. walked arnd with the other ppl after that then went back to the porch. boarded the bus. luxury bus. damn shiok. haha. got quite emo at the start then after that it became a chain gossiping session after that. chain because the gossips were passed in a chain ( like DUH).

8th JUNE (FRIDAY)

along the way had post-OT withdrawal symptoms. didn't want OT to end. argh, to think at the start i was having such thoughts about OT. i wanted OT to end soon at the start. oh man. all that we've prepared to hard for OT fr, it's all over. oh well. reached VJ at 6 plus. most slpt till abt 8 when washing up would start.

allocated the ppl for the washing and planned abit with rachel. then ms ng wanted to talk to the 6 of us for reflection alrd. we opened up quite a lot to her and a diff side of ms ng emerged. (:

mr seet debriefed all of us after that. it was really really insightful. ODAC is a club of future leaders with hihg expectations from teachers. and we would use all the mental toughness we learnt through OTs and camps for our future endeavours. we will succeed we will.

then washing up started. i got kinda frustrated but over alrd. don't care. haha.

WHOO i finally ended this post. LOL. took me super long! time finished : 5.53pm 12 JUNE.

hahaha my post owned all of urs! WHOO. okay la it's the content that matters. but i'm super relieved i finally finished my post. and i really didn't mind including all the small small details coz this is definitely one memory i wouldn't want to forget.

ODAC. Redefining adventure.

Rock on.

CLIC, a revelation.

2007-06-01T18:48:00.000+08:00

"who i am makes a difference"

who i am makes a difference. who you are makes a difference.

the phrase emphasised the most in CLIC.

it may not be the most sophisticated phrase i've ever come across but to me, after you truly understand what this phrase truly entails, it WILL change you, no doubt. and tho the time when they gave out the "who i am makes a difference" ribbons wasn't the most emo situation i've experienced, it somehow struck me how imcomplete i was.

no, it's not meant to be egoistic, it's just that to me, realising this fact can help me to become a better person, to serve better.

ahh so many things going through my mind now but just can't compile all my thoughts and say it all out here.

came to CLIC with a really one-sided mindset - to just while away 4 days of my life as quickly as possible, den look forward to OT. it weren't to be, right after the murder mayhem game. suddenly i just felt that actually i had a really fun group. it's just so weird. how all of a sudden i could feel this way. haha. but anw, i decided not to waste 4 days of my life anymore. the next few days were more of inspirational than fun. anyhow, i still love my 8 other groupmates and grp faci alot. haha.

darryl

terry

junguang

sheena

xianglin

yujuan

xinzhu

safirah

CHENGWEI

CLIC wouldn't have been what it is without them. though we weren't the champion group and only won the candle probably due to erhrm reasons, i believe all of us didn't really put it to heart coz all that mattered to us were the bonds that were forged thruout the 4 days. and also how we cared for each other and gave one another a chance. oh oh and the crap we came up with too! hahaha. seriously, i didn't know there was such a thing called a 7 second rule till they brought it up. what hvta pick up and blow den rub on shirt first. hahaha so cool. no harm trying also anw. (:
oh and i'll nv forget the time when we stayed up till 3 plus to talk cock. haha. and junguang acting as charsiew and darryl acting as mantou. and terry was my siamese twin! HAHA

ahh i'm starting to miss CLIC already. but seriously, i've really learnt alot from this camp.
thanks a lot to all the other facis and teaches and EKA who have made it possible.

and now there's another camp that's been at the back of my head for a long time. whoo OT OT FASTER COME! : D

LIBERATION AT LAST

2007-05-24T19:41:00.000+08:00

omg i'm finally back!
it's been so long since i last made an entry.
but what to do. guess this period of time has been busiest times of my life.
oh well, with the final ting(STUPID gpp) off my mind, i can finally take a breather at last. and there SHOULD be full day tmr. so YAY : D

sad to say, i've lost so much dur this period of time.
but on the contrary, i've also seen and experienced the feeling of having someone to back you whenever you need it. and also to realise the true meaning of brotherhood. i don't mind saying this again and again that i've nv felt so close to a cca before and i'm never gna regret my decision of joining odac. ever. (:
all's not going well for s63 though. the once super-bonded and enthu cls has sadly died down to what it is now. but through this period, i've also come to see true friends that surface over these 5 month period. i'm really glad i'm asociated with these ppl too.

i don't know why this is happening. at the start of the year, i've been telling myself not to neglect/forget my past buddies. try to maintain in contact with them as far as possible. but what's happening now. no doubt i'll just convince myself that i've been too busy about stuff and that it's inevitable that there all always thigns you have to let go. oh well, hope God has plans for me to help reconcile. rebuild my friendships.
but maybe, everyone is also moving on and i'm glad to see that too. hope for the best aye.

oh man. can't rmb what exactly happened the last few days alrd.
just know that i haven't been able to catch up with tutorials. failed chem lecture test. LOL. expected la, heck. btr chiong for MYes man wyemin. roar.

had level one rockclimbing two saturdays ago. was wondering how jason and arkar can be so enthu abt going to bouldering like twice a week. then after i tried climbing the vj rockwall for the first time, i started developing the interest for climbing too. surprisingly fun la. haha. too bad i stil don't have the time for bouldering, if not i'ma follow them whenever they go. then i can be imba too. yay!
but for now, i'm just a level one climber! not scared fall down from trees liao. whoo.

oh and the last weekend was dedicated to 2star kayak. T.T i don't really like kayaking. haha still don't really get how it can be fun. hrm. pass alrd then say. one more day left to go! den there'll be no more eskimo bow rescues ever. edging can wait too. hahaha. bought stuff for OT on saturday. gas canisters and insulation mats. quite fun, haha hvn been there bef. going again this sat! whee

oh and there's hse comm results. argh. it was tough and unexpected. oh well, but i guess everyone got over it alrd. hope i'll be able to be up to expectations and hopefully lynx will win the hse cup this year!!

argh, shall go chill alrd. haven't had the chnce to do so the past few days. tmr had better be a full day! then at least have one more day of rest bef it starts all over again. 3 straight imba weeks!

tmr: FULL DAY
sat: 2star kayak(last day) + buying of MORE OT stuff (:
sun- nxt wed : CLIC
thurs : ODAC stuff- first aid + field cooking
fri: REST
sat: PACKING DAY
sun: OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT (((((:

okay i'm off for now!
looking forward to tmr like hell. ahha

sick, yet again

2007-05-07T17:22:00.000+08:00

how cool, reached home at 10.15 today.

and no, i didn't pon school.

spring cleaning and more emo-ness

2007-05-06T21:35:00.000+08:00

sigh, i don't know what's happening to me now.
i just can't seem to concentrate at all now. i used to be so clear. at least in the past i understand myself well. i would get my priorities right and abide by them like my own golden rules. but now i just set them, and just take them for granted.

gah. is it really just because i'm in jc now and everything's changed? always hear stuff abt how you can choose to change your life completely by the decisions you make in jc, but i never expected it to be so drastic. significant enough for me to be so different as compared to the past. it isn't just what i do. reaching home late has already been routine to me. it's more about changes mentally that concerns me. oh man, seems as if i'm talking to myself.

cmon god, show me a sign please. am i doing things right? give me a direction.

i just wonder how long i can hold on like this.

anyway i just wanna say thank you to everyone who came down on a perfect Saturday for sleeping to help out in Spring Cleaning. (:
and also to my fellow QM and Room ICs ((:
the whole day wouldn't be possible if not for you guys. whoo.
honestly, i've never felt so attached to any cca or group before. i joined odac because of the people, and i'm glad i made that decision. this is one decision i'm never gonna regret.

now i can't wait for OT even more.

odac's going down?

2007-05-02T22:03:00.000+08:00

to think i thought we were strong. the times when we did everything as one. is it all going to become realistic again?

what would you do when everything comes down on you.

the same no more

2007-04-26T21:14:00.000+08:00

i realise i've been lying to myself all along, living under self deceit for so long.
it ain't the same anymore.
i've tried to change, but obviously it isn't enough. that, i've failed terribly.
it's been affecting me far too much. i know i have to let it go now and leave it all to God. what for try so hard, force something and failing ultimately.
it's been too obvious, looking out of place everytime, not being able to concentrate most of the time and practically just eating me slowly but steadily.

it's a really hard decision.
but everything i've seen. gah.
i don't know if what i'm hearing, what i'm seeing is true anymore.
i don't want to think about anything else, but everythign just doesn't go into place. it doesn't seem right.
i don't know what's happening anymore.

show me please. tell what what you want.

house speech ; dazed

2007-04-23T22:39:00.000+08:00

FINALLY.
LIKE FINALLY, house speech is over.
whoo, can't describe how relieved i am now. don't have to think about it anymore. : D

haha these past few days have been really weird. i know there's a lot going on in my mind. i can't seem to concentrate on anything at all. it's like most of the time i don't even know what i'm saying. minutes after saying something, i can't recall saying that at all already. weird.

gah. i'm really really sorry to people i may have seemed really distracted. i just can't help it. at any one time, there's just so much going on in my head i just don't know what to do at all. esp today. right aft last period (GP -.-), i had impromtu pw meeting, odac proposal to hand in, house meeting and just so many other stuff screaming into my head.

to rachel see (though i bet you don't come here) : i just wanna say i'm really sorry. i haven't been able to do much at all. feel so guilty. promise i'll chiong all the way once all this is over yeah. thanks for being so understanding! imba-ly nice qm. haha

oh well, guess i'm just tired.
long day tmr! shall go sleep early tonight for once. haha

stronger

2007-04-22T12:33:00.000+08:00

and it only makes me stronger.

busy week

2007-04-19T22:43:00.000+08:00

have been really busy this week.
the past 3 days + today rather.
thank god there's half day today. was actually a half day to me rather.
econs tutorial (SLACK) then PE, which we did some aerobics martials arts thingy. it was damn retarded at first but all of us got enthu eventually and all of a sudden it just became a joy to do. played cap's ball with jason's class aft tt. carried on to redo QM's spring cleaning proposal with rachel see. i'm really sorry i had to leave early! tho u won't probably read this anw. haha, oh well!

we chanted for "2 days" instead of "full day" today, but got half day in the end. what's this man. according to seniors, it's like by the time cross-country starts, there's already been like 3-4 full days alrd, but now we only have 1 and a half. oh well, mrs chan..

oh and pw groupings are out.

tmr's the end of this busy week. haven't had the chance to really do things i want yet. stupid PIeceofshit and all. but at least most of it is already over. only have chem lecture left, which is rumoured to be so imba, there's no need to even bother studying. cool, i like that. haha.

hmm can't seem to recall what's been on the past few days. monday was quite a bad day. went out with cheerleaders to thaipan for dinner. tuesday was interhse scrabble. lol, cant believe we went for it. oh well, but we got 2nd in the end. HAHA. ytd was cross-country! omg odac really rocks lah, i think we were damn good. and we initiated quite a lot of cheers too. haha. anw the girls got 1st overall. 2,3,5,7,10,19. how imba is that, even the last person is in top 20. guys weren't that good, but decruz and farrell got 1st and 3rd respectively.

just when i thought everything was good, there still seems to be this barrier.
time, it takes time i guess. can't expect much anyway. wonder why it's always after stuff like that when all this happens. it's just weird. and the problem's with me. for sure. to think i still expect so much.

bye

all's well again

2007-04-15T18:08:00.000+08:00

it's like the peace you've been looking for after the storm.
liberation after the rocky path behind.

it's time when i decided to hold on no matter what happens.
it's inevitable that there's going to be more tribulations but i'm ggoing to take them by my stride.
nothing's going to faze me again.

MUSICFEST on friday!
was quite worth the 12 dollars i must say.
heard about random comments that last year's was much better than this year. but so what, it's already of coniderably high standard already. very competitive also.
oh well, felt really sad for groups that tried so hard but didn't win. and HOUSECOMM MTV ! grawr, i thought that the vid was damn funny lah. sadly, i didn't get to appear in it. had ODAC stuff in the morning. oh well. wasted la. hockey guys won.
the rest of the results were more or less predictable, with CAMELS winning. HAHA. i think xr got quite high when they performed and when the results were out. ok all of us were quite high. HAHA : D
josiah's band was good too but ahhh. wasted.

principal meet parents session ytd. SC ODAC CT and supposedly hse comm were supposed to do saikang by carrying chairs and tables on friday afternoon and after the event itself. ODAC ppl went out after that. most ppl couldn make it but there were quite a few who went anw. 3 guys from s45 joined us too! haha. talked, joked around and gossiped like what we always do for quite awhile. then i went home to sleep my life away. haha, oh well.

next week's gonna be a really tough one.

MON- supposedly nothing.
TUE- QM proposal
WED- PI. pioneering cheifs brefing + training. Chem mock SPA
THURS- chem lecture test
FRI- welcome PT. class outing.

GGNORE.
shall go do some one-month-old tutorials now.
seeyou

emo saga over

2007-04-12T23:24:00.000+08:00

things have changed
times have past
though barriers have inevitably been formed
but things still have to carry on.

all that can be done is to mend what's been broken
and hope for the best.
nothing else can be done already anyway.

pray lord, grant me strength.

musicfest tmr.
long long awaited tickets. haha. oh well, this week particularly has been a really bad one, hope it ends off on a high note.

im really sorry to all those i've caused much displeasure.
if there's any way i can make up for it.

sigh.

it's over

2007-04-10T20:33:00.000+08:00

i give up.
i just can't go on anymore.
the things going on, just too many and i can't bear to see them.
that's me, im weak, just not good enough.

been trying to hide my emotions in sch, trying to look normal, forcing myself to get high and all.
it's hard, real hard.
i saw just now, and i chose not to see after that. unbearable at that time, but it has already happened. there's no changing. i am nothing. but now i just have to take it in my stride. it's over anw, leave everything behind and move on.

this period. the best times, i'll always remember. the hardest times too, never gna forget. as much as i can't bear to see it happen, i have no choice. it's a hard decision.

all this talk for nothing. i know i'm still nothing to you. all that i've put in is obviously a far cry from being there. oh well, memories.

so yea, i wish you all the best.
and you too.

sadness overwhelms

2007-04-09T22:17:00.000+08:00

it's always like that.
and its bound to happen some time anw, when you know it's not what you imagined it to be anymore. things change so fast. lose out, and its gone. just like that. can't change it, life's like that. can't expect everything to turn out ur way. you're weak, you're lousy, you're gone. simple.

sometimes i wonder if all of these are just signs telling me that it's just not meant to be, no point going all out, and in the end, somehow u realise it's not going in the direction you planned, and when you start regretting and all, there's use anymore. how much it'd pain you, too bad.

the signs are quite clear now. to turn back or not. hide away in fear, or just continue to give it all, one more shot. one wrong move, could mean everything. all the pain. argh. and if it all fails, just have to live in regret.

enough said, just not good. sigh

65th post

2007-04-07T20:08:00.000+08:00

amazing how once i start blogging i'll keep blogging. haha i hope this doesn't stop soon, even though it's really mundane stuff that i have to say.

yeah so anw, didn do much at all today. in fact, i rly did nothing. nothing at all. LOL, so much for wanting to start mugging. -.- woke up at like 11 today. LOL. slacked for awhle den went to meet rachel to discuss spring cleaning proposal. hawhawhaw. groupings and everything are out alrd. HAHA. no pun intended anw. (: oh well, hope everything turns out well on that day. have yet to prepare for "tekkan" session either. ahhh busy busy.

hmm den aft that went to parkway to study for awhle. HAHA. it was extremely bad. hardly even studied anything. oh well, i really can't study lah. i would get distracted every few minutes. walked arnd for like dno how many times too. sad. haha

kinda summarises what i did today la. practically nth. haha. oh well, there's pugger outing tmr! 4.10 at ps. yay. missed night cycling alrd, this one cant miss. haha. oh well, tomorrow! (:

milestone

2007-04-06T21:16:00.000+08:00

perhaps i have alrd lost all my interest to blog anymre, or mb its perhaps there's just been too much happening recently and its bcome impossible for me to note down everything here. excuses aside, i think im just to lazy to blog anymre. busy la! haha

oh man, i seriously can recall what's been happening in the past 20 odd days since i last blogged abt stuff. quite a few stuff happened dur tis period, but most of it was taken up by countless nights practising our cheerleading routines. im really glad to say it paid off, but sadly the euphoria only lasted on that day, den died down soon after alrd. haha oh well, still really relieved that we managed to win the competition. good job, good job!

and then there's odac stuff too. results were out on the saturday of week 1. played captain's ball and some other games in the mrng. thanks to shi han and arkar for putting the whole event together and being such good emcees. buffet aft tt. and finally the results. sigh, many unexpected ppl didn get in. Allen, andrew, jermyn( sorry dno how to spell ). ahh quite sad la.

initiation was on wednesday. wah i rly hope i wun fail my post. sigh. 3 months to prove it. haha. den dere were sadistic games aft tt. WAH, damn crazy. had to drink some weird concoction of peach tea, ALOT of salt, miranda, and who knows what else inside. damn disgusting. HAHA. had to memorise the ten commandments and pledge aft tt. nxt station was worse. we had to commando crawl on the super muddy field at the back of the netball court. whoo got rash till now. den we had to roll in all sorts of nonsense - egg, watermelon, shampoo, flour, milo powder etc etc. and in the end wear our shirts and shorts inside out. WHOO. last station was gross la. we had to transfer soggy uncooked macaroni a distance wif just our mouth. the pail with the macaroni was damn disgusting la, there were rice weevils inside, sweat in courtesy of seniors and more. we had to eat 4 cups of macaroni aft tt. POWER. HAHA and the finale, ultimate la! we had to squeeze out the juice of real sugarCANE wif our mouths. den u know, all the saliva and everything. HAHA but me and jason drank 2 cups of the "juice" aft tt. we also had to make milo by sucking in powder from our straws and sucking water. den spit the milo out into a cup. den we had to transfer the milo past 7 ppl thru straws. IMBA. hmm tt's abt it for initiation day i guess.

ODAC seriously rocks lah! (:

oh well, then friday was sport's day. didn feel very well on that day. but as the day went on, i slowly got better. getting high and everything. haha. yay.

was sick this week. woke up on monday wif an unusually high fever. hvn had a fever for quite long alrd. haha. didn go to sch on mon and tues. den slacked away on wed. ytd too, went for cheerleading dinner and the rest of the day/nite. haha (:

no post no post.

2007-04-03T17:49:00.000+08:00

whoo its been a long time alrd since i even touched tis.

but im not gna post anything now i guess, no time no time!

anw congrats to everyone in lynx!

okay i'll start blogging agn when i have time. most probably nxt wk.

OLC 2007

2007-03-14T15:05:00.000+08:00

whoo it's seriously been ages since i've even blogged properly. oh well, shall start frm day 2 of O2 all the way to today, den i'll be gone for another 2 days for stayovers and stuff. haha

Thursday, 8 March

Day 2 of O2! was Ct based so it wasn't that bad. at first LYNX had like 4 almost-full classes and that was already considered ALOT of people. haha. but as the day went by, the number slowly(fine, more like suddenly) reduced to only close to 60 people? when the other houses had around 100-200, except draco too. HAHA. oh well, anw tt day was quite a bad day too. borderline appeal cases was mainly the culprit. it's really really agonizing to know that people wif 9 points who have been in vj for the first term are unable to appeal in. oh well, wonder how the appeal system even works.

Anw, back to the day itself. there were cheer sessions and mass dance sessions at the start of the day. was kinda hyped up at first to see so many ppl around cheering too. but after the lunch break, my mood dropped to rock bottom. the games were kinda fun, especially Vidditch or something. at least dur the vidditch period we got back our enthusiasm. hahaha. and i think we got 2nd for vidditch! WHOO. den came the mass dances again.

basically that's abt all for O2, kinda expected alrd anw. HAHA, ooops. had to rush for training after that, while the rest of the cls went to have dinner. im really proud of S63! think we had the most number of people in LYNX left that day. hahaha

Friday 9 March (Day 1 of OLC '07)

grawr, friday was still a really bad day. and also the day when lessons resumed. followed thursday's timetable tho, which meant there was PE. argh, mainly today's lessons were quite slack, esp PE, whr we just had to sit in the hall and listen to some lecture for arnd an hour. nth much happened dur lessons i guess, jus stoned whenever given the chnce. haha.

think lessons ended at 2. chilled for awhle den had to buy food for Whirlwind alrd. oh btw, found out that we lost our flag at arnd 3 plus. surprisingly, i didn feel really that anxious. gah, think i really wasn looking forward to OLC. mental block. haha.

haha ok so from here onwards everythingw ill be on OLC (minus all the bitching parts, whoops)

yeah the 4 of us- me jolene arkar(new member to whirlwind) GT went to PP Giant to look for stuff to bring there. i bought my takeaway mac meal and i didn realise that would be my last LUXURY food for a long time. HAHA. hmm anw we bought quite a lot of stuff, loaves of bread, tuna, campbell soup, orea biscuits and mre. luckily we bought those. coz we seriously had a food shortage dur the camp if not for tis trip. didn rmb to buy our identity tho. damn.

hmm anw aft chionging the flag and everything, had to fall in at parade sq at 5. missed my 400m finals! suay la, jason ran but it didn turn out well and he still got sick too. not cool. haha. hmm yup den we got punished for losing our flag. had to run all the way to the tennis courts there and shout out 50 times "Sorry flag, we will not abandon you again." the other groups joined us afterwards but by that time we had alrd fin, so we just shouted 5 more and ran back. den had jump tests and all till they gave us our clue. had to search the sch compound for our GIs. our task was to take bus 30 to west coast park. unfortunately, i was the only one familiar wif bus 30, BUT i didn noe whr was the nearest bus 30 busstop to from vj. so i stupidly lead whirlwind to the DHS busstop. IM SORRY! hahaha. the rest of the grps merely walked like 2km thru the siglap park connector whereas we trekked abt 6km thru ecp to the dhs busstop. damn idiotic man. my bad, my bad. HAHA.

ended up at wcp arnd 9. had to search for a location in wcp for our nxt task. however we didn choose to follow what the uncle said on the bus and followed Typhoon blindly. and they led us into a deadend of an industrial park -.- anw we ended up in wcp for our obstacle course in the end. forgot wad we got alrd. had tis test aftwards. HAHA i screwed it totally. i know nth abt theory! LOL. den dere was..... TENT PITCHING. the crux of what makes OLC OLC man seriously. without TENT PITCHING, u'll never have something as close to OLC. HAHA. come to think of it, i kinda miss tent pitching actually. jsut didn like the losing stuff part only. so fo that night we had to redo quite a number of times, till abt 12 when they let us off. HAHA. i knocked out the moment i went inside the 4 men tent.

SATURDAY ( DAY 2 of OLC '07)

had to wake up at 4.30 to prepare for sentry duty. was almost late. hmm anw sentry duty was kinda sian for us. since all the wrong things happened to us, our spirits were kinda demoralised. had some reflection wif the GIs, but we didn open up much. basically that was it.

den there was TENT PITCHING AND UNPITCHING again. HAHA. wasn so bad tis time. had to go for our mrng jog. wah quite scary, a few ppl got quite sick becoz of the run. but luckily everyone could cont. den they gave us our nxt clue sheet.

first destination : bukit timah hill
this one was the killer one. we wanted to save up our 9 transport limit and as a result, we asked like at least 10+ people for directions and had to trek arnd 6km to our busstop. imbaa. anw we had enuf time to sstop and rest at BTH. blizzard(current first grp) was still on the way down. and typhoon came bef us so we had to wait for them too. the hike up was surprisingly steep, but happy that our grp managed to climb up and back down wifout much difficulty. whoo. had to do some task at the top, some sort of bowling game. whr we had to throw ping pong balls to knock down empty cans. wah tt one was quite bad. haha

2nd destination : botanic gardens.
didn had any difficulty getting dere at all. found our meeting point quite easily too. finished our task quite fast and we overtook typhoon and hurricane dur tis station, making us 2nd! YAY.

3rd destination : bras besar complex
omg tis one was uber tyco. ahha our task was to select one of the 3 stairways to search for a door wif a green bandana hanging outside the gate. we selected the right one and found our door without much difficulty. 21-03 ! HAHAHA

4th destination : plaza sing
our lunch point. we were given $14 to spend for lunch. bought one bottle of orange juice, 1.5L mineral water, donuts, pandan bread and bananas.

5th destination : Mt Faber
this one was a killer too. we took a train to Harbour front frm PS. den we didn know what bus to take up there, so we just walked all the way from harbour front to the top of Mt Faber -- Faber point. damn scary la, we met hurricane and Typhoon at the top, tho we had a 30min lead over them. but jia hao typhoon got a bad cramp on his leg so they had to stop for him so we overtook them. felt quite bad tho.

6th destination : Labrador Park
chionged back to harbour front, den boarded 408 to labrador park. had to do this memory game task. whoo we finished it quite well.

den we took 10 all the way to vjc. and got 2nd somemre. first was blizzard. Tornado and cyclone were alrd der but they didn fin the last destination so we still got 2nd. think hurricane came in late, so we had to run 4.5km. the pace wasn that fast so it was quite fun. haha.

aft the run was slack ti me, till the bus came. GT fell sick dur the run. quite scary la. den it was a LONG bus sride to KUANTAN. freaking cold la the bus. haha i had o nly my pe attire on. WTH. haha.

SUNDAY (DAY 3 of OLC '07)
headed off for BERKELAH FALLS at like 8 in the mrng. quite slpy still tho. and we had to lugged our heavy packs up the falls. i had freakingly frictionless shoes. haha. had ALOT of difficulty climbing up man. but nevertheless, all of us managed to climb up the waterfall successfully. we reached a clearing at like 11. had to split up into 2 grps to pitch our tents due to the lack of space.
aft lunch and all we started our hike up the top of the falls. freakingly scary. look down alrd feel like dying. it was crazily high la. and i really nid to chnge my shoes. HAHA. anw, aft alot of near falls, all of us still managed to reach the top of the falls. a few ppl got quite bad cuts tho.

we had one hour of free time at the top of the falls. had a rly chilly swim in the water. wasn exactly as clean as i tot tho. a lot of fungus. but the swim was really good anw. den came the hike down. wasn as bad as the climb up alrd, mb coz i had mental preparations den i was gna fall anytime. HAHA.

reached base camp, den started on field cooking. ours was quite good surprisingly. another impromtu product of Whirlwind! HAHA. all the rojak mixed tgt.

yup, and since there was a lack of space for campfire, we just had quiet time tgt wif GIs. ahd this peer evaluation thing. den it was just an early night.

DAY 4 !!!!
had morning recreation instead of night recreation. HAHAHA. we had to put up our skit. it was super last min la, so no surprise we got last fr the skit. LOL. anw, aft the skit den it was a hike back down. had some situational practice on teh way back to the bus. damn shiok la, when we finally boarded the bus. was given permission to get drinks too. SONG AH. hahaha. long bus ride back to vjc. was a really really good bonsding session on the bus too. TYPHOON AND TORNADO ROCKS LA. ahhaha. but too bad whirlwind boulders. -.-" . sry.

yup so when we reached vj, dere was hornet drill again and all. darryl from blizzard got the award for best hornet drill. den was cleaning up of all the equipments. and the revelation of the results. omg la, the first page was really really imba for whirlwind, we eiter got 2nd or 1st for all the competitions. but the team spirit, identitiesr, food etc etc part was damn sucky. HAHA. but in the end we ended up 3rd! was quite a good result for us alrd.

oh well, that's abt it for OLC. surprisingly, i kinda like OLC aft that. HAHA. damn shiok la.

ahh okay shall add on to t his ome other time, gtg for my stayover now =D

CYA ALL

orientation and blues

2007-03-07T22:47:00.001+08:00

hurray, for day one of O2 has ended. My crewlet had only like one guy and he left soon after. so that leaves no one in my crewlet for practically the whle day. oh well, but it was quite fun tho, getting highs here and there among OGLs outselves. haha.

den was dhs dinner at thaipan. got highs agn. haha.

ah generally today was quite high but on the whole, it wasn't a really good day for me, as expected. oh well.

been neglecting so many people and stuff even now. i dun even dare think abt the future man. bet i'll jus become some anti-social asshole.

priorities, priorities!

haha. Day 2 of O2 tmr! hope its gna be fun. den its OLC alrd. GG. haha

orientation and blues

2007-03-07T22:47:00.000+08:00

gd days ahead! i hope

2007-03-04T01:47:00.000+08:00

yay, days are getting better and better. =D

tho the nxt few days will be really busy for me. hope it'd be alright man.

ogl trng today was fun. im in INCAS - Iball. think im gna crash other grp tho. dun blame me. hahaha. its jus fate. -.- i hope i'll have nth to do wif tt person anymore ever agn. grawr.

on a brighter note, pugger dinner tonite! 6 vs guys, 3 cedarians, 1 SC, and me. nevertheless it was still rly fun tho. odac is cool man. haha. whoo i rly hope all of us get in man, how nice would it be. oh well, its like we're not even cca mates yet, but we're alrd quite bonded. wad abt aft we get in. hahaha. whoo ok its just another wk mre to go.

ah ok den, tired. bye

bad start gd end =)

2007-03-03T01:12:00.000+08:00

whoo ok sorted out all the stuff bothering me alrd. partly coz today has been a rly reflective day for me and also thanks to the rly rly thught-provoking show - Pursuit of HappYness which i caught wif tj,ch and gang tis aftnn.

haha good show, great company.

didn expect today to be quite a gd day aft all =D

bad start to the day, nevertheless, a gd ending.
bad start to the wk as well, and i hope a gd ending would follow. haha =D

ok dere's gna be ogl trng tmr. haha kinda looking forward to it. nice ppl!

oh well, cya

emooo

2007-03-02T00:22:00.000+08:00

oh well, guess things wad i imagined it to be.
don't know wads happening to me these few days too. im very sure i've nv been like this before.
guess the more effort i put in to things, the greater the impact when things don't look too good.

there's seriously been so many stuff happening. tis is not gd man. haha.
time for usual routine. haha.

SCREW IT

2007-02-26T21:30:00.000+08:00

and so i take back wad i've said.

there isn't gna be gd days ahead im sure. it'd be a miracle if i even last tis week.

sometimes i wonder, what if i chose the poly path, wouldn it have been better. hmm.

screw it

gd days ahead

2007-02-25T22:22:00.000+08:00

WHOO im anticipating mre gd days to come! haha the past few days have been relatively good, if not for the mr tan incident. argh. that rly thought me a lesson man. the thing i hate the most is getting blackmarked man. it totally sucks. grawr nvm.

ok gd days gd days!

CNY CNY

2007-02-18T09:38:00.001+08:00

whoo my blog's dying alrd man. its not tt i've lost interest in blogging, jus that i rly have no time at all to blog and the moment i reach hme it'd be quite late alrd. cant think of wad happened anymre. oh well. im gna shou ye tonite so i shall tink a lil. haha

hmm. shall start frm OLC. frankly speaking i didn look forward to the camp at all. the time given for planning seriousl wasn enuf. at least tts how i felt. dur tt one and a half day period we had to pick twigs for fire, make pegs, get all the stuff for camp rdy and submit a proposal of some sort. damn stressful i tell u. many ppl couldn take it and jus backed out. oh well. but the camp itself was fun tho. level of discipline was there and there was also an extent of fun. didn have to do sadistic stuff like doing hornet drill in muddy regions tho. mb coz there weren't muddy regions dere in the first place. camp was rly tiring man. first day and we had to trek for the whle day. frm one end of ubin to the other end jus to get clues. jus being able to sit down was like heaven to us alrd. haha. den dere was nitewalk. wasn as thrilling as i thot it would be. mb coz i was too dead at tt time alrd. ahha. den came solo nite. LOL damn freaky! my torch as damn sucky, so my Gi told me to start a fire first for light. so i started a fire, it was quite gd, except tt i "dao" the structure too early. so it wasn tt gd. oh den my GI came to inspect my fire and it was sth like..

GI: Trainee is your fire ready?
Me: Yes, GI.

then i was looking for my lighter and i found it somewhr in the fire. i was like OH SHIT. HAHA. DAMN FUNNY. it was classic aft tt. SUPER BIG EXPLOSION. DAMN NICE. whoo. got both of us stunned for quite some time. cant wait to try it again. hahaha hmm den 2nd day was kayaking. abt the same la, kayaked for 8 plus hrs i tink. first legs, now arms. but it was fun i guess. had to trek back frm NSC to VJ aft tt. they made us do some damn embarassing stuff in ecp. oh well. we just did la, damn tired alrd, we'll do anything for rest. HAHA. yea basically tts abt it. have a much greater impression of ODAC now. and im quite impressed by myself tt im actually looking forward to OLC part 2. except the planning part! HAHA.

hmm tues was.. hse comm interview. LOL. i seriously flopped it. FOR SURE. HAHA. aiyah sian la. guess i hvta put in mre effort. oh well.

ahh basically days aft OLC weren't good. till maybe ytd? ytd was seriously of the better days so far. dere were celebrations in the mrng and den mass dance. HIGH. haha. crashed S33 aft all. learned some coll bottle cheer. ahh fun fun seriously. =D

today wasn tt gd too. maybe except till towards the end of the day. haha. at least it ended off wif a good note =) YAY. ahh hope nxt wk will be fun! we must be happy! HAHA =D

ah ok i tink i shld go catch the man u match alrd. MAN U GO GO GO. LOLOL.

GRAWR. this post was supposed to be up by 1 last nite and its still not up yet. cool.

bad week

2007-02-16T00:23:00.000+08:00

hmm its been a rly rollercoaster wk for me man. full of highs and lows.

oh well. i realised im quite affected by other's moods. haha. its rly weird la, how i can turn suddenly high to being emo in jus a matter of minutes. ahh i shall try to high-inducing frm nw on. haha. short-term goal number 1.

argh there's been a lot happening these past few days. kinda enuf to be highlights in my life alrd. ah anw dun tink i'll be able to touch on it now. so damn tired! jus came back frm jts only. haha. it was so damn fun! ahh but was kinda held back by sme stuff. oh well. i hope everything turns out fine! i wna help! haha =D

ooh hse comm mascot stuff tmr. kinda looking forward to it. haha. i love the nominees in my hse.

ah tis is bad ! grawr. tmr will be a btr day!

the 2nd not so gloomy day

2007-02-05T00:18:00.000+08:00

yay man. today has been a great day for me too.
tho it has been as unproductive as always. haha.
but who cares la, fun is all tt matters to me now.

screw homework =D

hope there'd be enuf time for me to complete all my tutorials. lol. hvn done a single one tis whle wkend. ok in fact, i haven even taken out my file. LOL.

and hse comm form's giving me a lot of stress. why make it so long ! hahaha. ah im stil nt sure abt lots of hse comm stuff yet. damn,

haha anw like i said, i didn do much today. highlight of today prolly would be playing tennis wif tj. whoo. damn fun. haha. drama kings. LOL.

i miss dhs ppl!

ah and im still looking forward to thurs! HAHA. stayover at dhs!

so far 8 ppl are going alrd. MORE MORE !

WHOO AND MAN U ARE LEADING !

im out of it !

2007-02-04T00:08:00.000+08:00

yay today's a much much btr day la. esp the later part of the day. :D
whoo i wan tis to continue forever. haha. tho im well aware that this kinda thigns nv happen.
damn.

haha ok dere's spsed to be a cls outing today la. pri sch cls. lol.
bt most couldn make it in the end. oh well.
sme other time perhaps !
I MISS 6-1 ! hahaha

yay i woke up really late today. arnd 1 i guess. partially coz i slpt at 3 plus last nite. and also cause i didn like the feeling of having to face stuff tt i dun like to do, or think abt. didn do much at all, read newspapers den went back to slp at 2 plus. HAHA. yes yes, im damn lazy i noe. lol. cant help it la. been having 5hrs-of-sleep-ONLY weekdays since the start of sch. i've been reaching hme like average 11 plus everyday. hw to slp early la. aiya basically didn do much today.

damn chelsea won again. crap.

haha i wan mre of tis kind of days !

oh oh and anyone interested to stayover at dhs on thurs? HAHA come ask me! :D

GAH trngs and mre trngs

2007-01-23T22:39:00.000+08:00

yay finally can squeeze out a bit of time to use the com.

RAWR its been so long since i reached home bef 10. oh man, stil nt rly used to it yet, tho getting dere alrd. kinda like JC life now. ok shdln say all these too early, who knows wad may happen nxt time.

oh well. shall attempt to try and chnge myself. for the better, hopefully.

hmm forgot wad i did on sunday alrd. oh er came back frm church den went down games rm to chill. haha eric came aftwards. went to play tennis wif him ltr. haha fun! we did sme stupid gay stuff tt was rather entertaining. LOL. ok at least time felt like it passed damn quickly whle we were playing. =( oh den my cousin came and eric left. soccer aftwards. den he came over! WHOO told me a lot of stuff abt VJ ! like all the unbelievable stuff actually happened in VJ :X HAHA but i shant jus go arnd telling everyone wad these scandals are. haha mus see who first. LOL. eh mostly jus talked and dota-ed wif him. haha it's been a long time since we spent time wif each other. LOL sounds so wrong.

hmm monday ! was a long day la. only 2 breaks in btwn lessons tt lasted upo till 3.40 . hockey trng aft tt smemre. OH LYNX was imba ! hahaha for both of the games i watched, lynx was like owning everyone lah ! =) GOGO LYNX! hahaha but sadly i heard they lost all the other games aft tt. oh well. LYNX will win the other comp, no wries :DD oh den aft hockey trng lazed arnd in the canteen fr awhle den went to Thaipan for dinner wif dianne xr yl pr and ted. haha was quite high at the start, but got rly tired out of a sudden halfway thru dinner. den i practically stoned all the way. lol. sadness. WE SHLD HAVE MRE THAIPAN OUTINGS! haha :D

ehh today.. nth much either. today was even worse. lessons all the way. tues rly suck lah. longest day of the wk =( its like lectures tutorials more lectures and mre tutorials all the way. SIAN! tot as far as lessons goes, tuesday's suck the most. RAWR. haha nvm over alrd. crazy man. im jus starting to uds the topic only, den whoosh they decide to jump to another topic. like wth? have to play catch up all the way la. anw bowling trng ltr. fun fun fun ! hahaha tho we didn play wif pins thruout the whle trng. haha beginners lah.

anw gtg slp alrd. TIRED ! CYA

ccas galoree

2007-01-20T01:03:00.000+08:00

wah super shagged now. but since its the wkend, prolly the only time i can do even a short post.

ehh wed was a slack day for me.. didn do anything. jus chilled out wif s63 ppl den went hme aft tt. nt sure. haha mb tt was the wrong day.

thurs was trng. haha talked to my snr cls for quite some time. den hanged out w dianne(RENEE) and ppl till trng started. hahhaa first trng and we alrd late. LOL ! but lucky we weren't late for that long. mb <5 mins. oh, its me and kaikeng btw, my fellow ccamate! :D haha did drills and stuff. theory lesson too. all the boards and stuff. quite boring for a first trng, but tts wad trngs are for. not?

yay today was super tiring, tho rather slack. haha ! had lectures all the way except for 2 econs tutorials in btwn. den we went out to kfc in PP for lunch. went for DOTA trials. haha ok nt trials, but er.. jus a game. haha left early for hockey trng. i didn noe wad we were doing actually. haha but thankfully for my new fren, James. you rock ! haha. accompanied me the whle time. omg sucha gd fren. haha. den went for softball trials too. hope can go in man. lol. ponned 3rd period pe ! YAY. den it was OG bbq. haha er think the bbq kinda sucked. as in the food part. feel kinda cheated of my $6 but i gained quite a lot of tips by talking to jeannie. haha. super long walk to 7-11 and back. yay today was rly fulfilling. hope tis carries on for a long time. i wna stay in VJ !!! PLEASE

wooties for CCA !

2007-01-16T21:55:00.000+08:00

yay yay yay !

went for tennis squash bowling trials today!
hahaha was super tyco la ! yay yay now have 3 to choose frm alrd :D

gna try mre on friday !

oh and gg back to dhs tmr ! YAYYY aft so long, can get to see old pals agn! omg cant wait la !

wah but cant cope wif sch work now man !

ah anw, gna do some other stuff now.

CYA ALL :D

07S63 CHEERS !

2007-01-15T20:14:00.000+08:00

whoo finally a day where im free to do my own stuff. been super busy since last thurs la ! super hectic sch life. but so interesting !

HAHA and as im typing tis Team Sg are leading 2-0 against LAOS ! : D

and now its 3 !!

haha let me recall wad i did last wk.. eh basically nth much i guess. jus tt i didn feel much bonded to the cls the whle of last wk. was too tired alrd. and smemre i wasn used to the much much heavier load as compared to secondary sch. so most of the time i was feeling spr sluggish. lazed arnd whenever i could and hardly talked to anyone in the cls at all! most of wad kept me occupied was stupid thoughts abt the ODAC camp. how rushed it was, how unprepared we were, bla bla bla..

but now its a totally diff ting ! aft the various tings that happened today, i became so much closer to the class alrd. or at least tts how i felt. hahaha the break games, aft lesson truth or dare and jus plain crapping in cls. haha i love 07S63 man! hope the nxt few days would be the like it is now, if not better..

ah and the b2b camp.. hmm lemme say, boring? but the main thing tt made me really pissed was how much preperations we had to do in such a short period of time jus for tis camp. kinda ridiculous la but i gta get used to tis kinda life if i wanto make it there. yup. my grp members were kinda slack too. kept reminding them abt the skit bt no one jus wanted to cooperate =( anw we flopped the whle skit thingy. lol. wadever. hahaha! and our enthusiasm lvl was steadily dropping frm the start. so in other words, my grp was dead practically thruout the whle camp. and the irony was tt we got the "most enthu grp" award. -.- my grp leader was super act cute too. cant stand it la!

ok anw first day was quite short. first we had some game whr we had to look for our GIs around the whle sch. den run up and down the spiral staircase to look for folder letters in a bucket. quute fun! den nxt was field cooking. we kinda flopped the cooking comp too. despite putting in so much money.
2nd day was amazing race. first part was in Sg. had to go to various landmarks to look for GIs and den do their activities. den the nxt part of the race was cycling to look for clues in Ubin. pitched our tents and had campfire at nite. quite sucky i mus say. but mainly becoz i dno any campfire songs. or i would have been high again cheering agn. lol. den was nitewalk. wah. mus have been the worst nitewalk ever. they made futile attempts to tell ghost stories to scare us dur the start. but the walk was kinda stupid. they jus sat by the road, not doing anything and expected us to be frightened. -.-
3rd day we went dragon boating in the mrng. was spsed to go ecp for activities but was cancelled becoz of the rain. had floorball aft tt in sch hall. we won all our games man!

yea basically tt was it la. sucky but im stil gna join ODAC. i hope :D

haha ok back to doing concrete stuff now ! trials tmr! gogogo

dropping dead now.

2007-01-11T21:31:00.001+08:00

oh man now i finally understand why they say JC life is HELL.

From the super fast paced lectures, to the even faster paced tutorials, to the CRAZY CCAS -.- omg cant take it anymre alrd. haha hope tis wkend will past rly soon. and hopefully nxt wk can be a much mre relaxing week compared to tis wk.

wah and i feel super bad lah! neglecting so many ppl ! my class, all my frens and even the dhs dinner ting tt supposedly me and pr came up wif :X dun tink anyone will see tis la but SORRY ! i really really wanted to go one, but tis stupid b2b camp is totally killing me. spoilt so many of my plans. guilty. oh no.

nxt wk nxt wk i promise ! and i pray hard dere wun be any events of such sorts anymre.

sian i rly regret so much la abt the choices i made. started of rather enthusiastic abt my cls the first time i saw the ppl. den gradually mre tings slowly cropped up and i didn have much time to spend wif dem. jus missed cls lunch today too becoz of the preparations. oh man. wah i swear aft tis ting ends ah... been so sluggish in sch too. falling aslp every nw and den. =(

ah have lotsa stuff to do. dno why i decided on blogging. haha. im so sorry!

ok back to business ! cya!

oh and tj,ch,shane and all others : we must meet up real soon! haha. cage or sth :D

all hail VJ

2007-01-08T23:28:00.000+08:00

hoho im back frm vj mass dance at suntec! and also sea regatta at ecp too.

wah no words can really describe how i feel abt vj now la. it's rly rly no wonder why ppl say vj has got to be the most enthu sch ever. haha dno abt other schs but to me, vj's the sch for me no doubt.

had so much fun under the sun, and got burnt like some roasted chicken. nevertheless, i still enjoyed the whle orientation experience thoroughly. frm the multiple dunking of random ppl and some ogls, to the funny yet fulfilling station games. how i wish i could go thru orientation again lah. i dun mind at all man even tho i'll be dead prob maybe on the nxt day. haha.

oh yea it was also really amazing to see how dhs--> VJ ppl can bond so easily. lol. started frm a chain of only a few guys which steadily grew up to almost the whle vj cohort of dhs ppl. so damn cool la. spr strong sense of belonging.

but sian la sch/lessons starting tmr alrd. but tink i wun mind man, considering my cls. so nice la everyone. hope dere's gna be a half/full day off tmr man :D

anw bottomline is

VJ SO ROCKS MY SOCKS

VJCCCCCCCCCCCC

2007-01-06T23:42:00.000+08:00

ok.. one day left to go till orientation ends!

omg cant wait for mon. dere's gna be sea regatta and den mass dance at fountain of wealth at nite. WHOO! i wna get dunked on mon man. hvn tried bef. haha. instincts telling me tt mon will be rly rly fun. esp mass dance at nite tho i hvn mastered any of the 6 dances yet. HAHA. but who cares la. jus anyhow wave my arms and stuff can liao. lol.

oh oh. and CREON's THE CHAMPION CREW! and yea, im from Creon.Cadillac. My OGLs are Michelle Jeannie and ZhiWei. yay dere're rly nice ppl. can talk to them very easily. and a super fun bunch of ppl too! hah. but sadly i tink my crewlet's a bit dead. esp on the first and second days, but we opened up so much more on the last day-friday, so it wasn't too bad afterall. however till now im not very familiar wif all of the members in Cadillac yet. maybe for the 2 relatively closer guy-friends whom i spend most of my time in the grp hanging out wif them. ironically, i only got their numbers on the last day. hahaha. sadness.

okay.. so like i said, on the first day we were all still rly cold towards one another. i was rly tired thruout the whle day anw. hmm let me recall wad we did for the first day. er we took quite awhle to get into our respective crews. i didn noe creon had tt many ppl frm dhs. ok wdv. er tink dere was daniel donovan dianne and mb one or two mre i cant rmb alrd. but sadly none in my crewlet. er den dere were icebreaker games. honestly, they were quite lame la. haha and i was always the one who got sabo-ed to do forfeit. lol. but nvm its fun anw. learnt 2 mass dances in the aftnn. sad lah! till now i stil cant grasp any! ah btr learn soon man. basically tink there wasn much done on the first day.

err second day.. oh we year 1s had assembly for the first time. all students assembled in the hall. den dere was nat anthem and college anthem. yay i memo up till the 3rd para alrd. gimme awhle mre :D hmm den they introed all the tchrs. principal gave his speech. aft tt we jus got into our crews and started the games. again, it wasn that fun. but at least on the second they we got quite bonded alrd. could see everyone tried rly hard to work tgt. was nice to see =) den it was lunch+cca walkabouts. i signed up for a few but i doubt im going fot the trials even. lol. see how. i wna get into house comm!!! eh tink aft tt we learnt another 2 new mass dances. and started on wet games aft tt. hahaha the wet games one was damn fun. fun to get wet wad. haha. nth much aft tt alrd. OG dinner aft tt. my crewlet only had a pathetic 2 members including me who turned upo for the dinner. kwok ming and I. ahh damn sad la. and i lost my hp too. but luckily found it in the GO. ehh dinner was fun toO! we had only 2 so we sat wif the OGLs. and they told us a lot of stuff. gossips, tips and sometimes jus plain nonsense but the whole experience was rly great! hahaha.

third day.. had dno wad PW briefing. heard tt it sucks a lot. oh man god bless me. haha. oh den we got to know our class aft the various nonsensical talks. 07s63!! whoo i love my class man. at least the first impression i get is that everyone was very enthu alrd, even on the first day. actually i tink i can see we'll be really united in the future. jus give us a few mre days :D very easy to get along wif the rest too. oh and dere's 4 from dhs too! er huiyi joey and yu an. power man. 07s63 rocks! hvn quite rmbed all 23 names yet but tink i'll get to know soon. =) ok.. den basically the rest of the day was more games and cheering and learning another 2 mass dances. hurray. most of us got rly enthu dur the games. we won all of dem i tink. and the main thing was we got champion crew! tho something tells me that dere's gna be sth happening on mon. anw im still looking forward to the next few days in VJ.

ah rly tired nw. cant rmb much abt the past 3 days alrd. but mainly the highlights were that. hope i didn forget anything impt that happened. haha. ah now TGIF applies to me. sch days are getting so hectic, yet fun. ok btr not say so soon since its only the first 3 months. finally got to wake up late today. slpt till rly late in the aftnn. damn shiok.haha

ahh so many other things happened too but its jus too many to say it all. but anw, VJ rly rocks la! rly hope i can stay for 2 years man. PLEASE!!

ok arsenal's match gna start soon! henry's back! and arsenal shall break the 70-game jinx! gogo arsenal!

HAPPY NEW YEAR

2007-01-01T15:35:00.000+08:00

happy new year to all!

finally woke up not long ago.

honestly, 6-1 '02 rocks my socks la! dno why i always have the feeling that the moment we all get warmed up, its just fun fun fun all the way. and last nite/tis mrng was perfect proof. really didn expect that strong of a bond to exist btwn one another even tho it has already been so long. or maybe i shld say bonds that still stay existent btwn a grp of people. coz sadly to say a majority of ppl have alrd faded away and what we do now, they may not be used to seeing. but anw, im still rly glad that our 5th cls outing was rly successful, despite ky not hitting his target of 15 ppl. HAHA. but so what if only the same few ppl came, it was still as fun as ever what! a pity a few had some other commitments so they couldn join us. nvm im sure theres gna be another one and another one and another one definitely.. :D aww im rly proud of 6-1 '02. haha seriously i dun tink there's any cls out there who can still stay tgt aft such a long time. exactly 4 years to be precise. BE ENVIOUS! hahaha.. i blv we can stay tgt even aft a few yrs later. i hope.

oh when i met them dere were jf ky mj gj viv celes limin and jf at that time.

had sth to do bef i could meet them at tamp mrt. so i met dem quite awhle aft at the marina bay bowling alley. i walked dere. haha took me arnd half an hr jus to reach tt place. and i didn even noe how to walk dere. so i jus followed the route 400 went. haha reached dere anw in the end. reached dere and i didn noe wad was happening. but most prolly we walked out of the bowling alley coz the price per game is most likely too expensive. went to arcade aftwards. arnd 8 of us surrounded arnd the "spot-the-difference" machine. whoo we tried 2 games and made the highscore for both! power kids. hahaha. 8 heads think better than one.

searched for a steamboat restaurant aft tt. most of them were fully booked alrd. so we jus went to one whr mj said he had a gd experience there. $12. the price was okay but the food didn match up to it. aww.. but it was okay la. didn have steamboat for quite a long time alrd so.. was quite fun to see styrofoam jus melting away. lol. i practically jus ate meat all the way. the drinks were damn expensive too. the price of one bottle of 1.5L coke was such that u could buy like 3 bottles in any NTUC stores. cool. tink gj got quite pissed too. he requestd for a chnge of aluminium foil but they jus ignored him. but his mood chnged immediately aft they chnged the sheet. haha. food was average. ah the whle ting was jus average to below-average. oh den xh and wy joined halfway. that stupid aunty was so sharp and calculative la. came right aft and asked for them to pay. wad an ass. lol.

ehh there was quite some time bef midnite so we went to the bowling centre jus beside to spend the time. the rate was $3 per game so we jus decided to go bowl. quite a lot of time left anw. how to hook wif a hse ball?! so gay. haha. oh ml and jy joined aftwards.

anw aft we finished bowling it was like an hr away only. and we walked out to the busstop. haha. the whe bus was alrd packed. the whle busstop was packed to the max too. tink we stoned at the kerb for quite awhle too. didn noe wad to noe. a walk to the mrt station frm dere would take arnd an hr. and obv dere wasn enuf time. dere was technically no mode of transport out of that "island". there was a steady stream of ppl walking across a park too. but the thing was, we didn follow the crowd. mj wanted to be the crowd. lol. so whle hundreds of ppl rushed across the park, we jus strolled along the perimeter of the park. and we were obv getting no whr. haha. aft awhle the place we were at was alomst deserted so we jus cut thru thick grass, thick frog-infested grass. and we came to the middle of the park. quite a lot of ppl dere. we had no idea whr we were going too. mj said to jus follow The Oriental and we would be fine. but the thing was, we were on the other end of the singapore river. lol. so we wandered for awhle and came to some place underneath benjamin sheares bridge? and across the expressway dere were some faint lights so we decided to explore. and on the other side, it was a dead end la but there were at least 2 hundred plus ppl setting mats dere. and we spent the last 40 mins dere, crapping. haha and at exactly 11.58, most of the lights frm the hotels and buildings went off. and the fireworks jus started. 8 minutes plus of pure amazement. and i tink we got the best view too. the fireworks were just right above us. damn awesome. i took a vid but its of rather low quality considering my phone's camera sucks. haha gna get it frm xh aft wards.

aft tt we decided to jus walk to the mrt station and to esplanade. on the way dere were grps of ppl selling drinks they couldn finish. smart ppl. really innovation and enterprise. lol. took quite awhle jus to reach the mrt station. dno why but my phone seemed to be jammed. couldn send out any sms. all were rejected. sad.

got to marina bay mrt finally. took the train to city hall. xh jy ml and wy went off. so 9 of us left only. went inside esplanade. sat arnd the lobby dere. jus lazed arnd. didn do anything at all. lol. den gj left. and soon aft, viv jf and limin left too. jiafeng wanted to leave but couldn get a taxi. so he came back. and now dere were only me ky jf mj and celes. didn noe wad to do after that. so we jus thought of mac in marina sq. supposedly the nearest mac according to the guard. but the thing was that it wasn 24 hrs. so we jus walkewd all the way dere and realised it was closed. so we decided to walk to kallang mac. came across a Giant trolley on the way. wanted to push it all the way dre and take turns sitting inside. haha.

oh den outside citylink mall we met a drunkard and his fren. they were like asking whr the nearest 7-11 was. mj said inside citylink but he didn noe that it was closed. and aft awhle tt guy got pissed. so he confronted mj. haha mj talked back to him too and he got super pissed. if i could rmb correctly the convo was sth like tis.

drunkard: eh u tell me here got 7-11, now u tell me closed, how?
mj: how i noe the 7-11 closed, my fault uh?
drunkard: now wad?
mj: wad wad? if nth we go eat alrd.
drunkard: wad? u go eat for wad?
mj: ppl hungry eat lah
drunkard: (stares for awhle), eh not happy ah?
mj: wad not happy? u are the one whos not happy wad

and at that pt of time he was almost right in front of mj's face. me jf and ky stood and one side i tink. i was scared stiff. haha. first time got such thing sia! fun fun. lol. oh den aft.

drunkard: okay. u 4, come. come come come. come 4 take me.

LOL. thrilling. haha first time encounter. den ky snapped back and told him we aren't the fighing-type. and his fren was still sober and hes on our side so he jus motioned for us to walk away and ignore him. haha. interesting.

den on the way to kallang mac, most of wad we talked abt was our fighting expeirence. okay i mean fights tt happened in sch. lol. realised tms also has quite a lot of fights and trble. lol.

reached kallang mac at arnd 4 plus. bfast was almost rdy alrd. and the 5 of us jus talked. haha. rly surprisingly how we could jus keep on talking even aft how long we hvn seen each other. den waited fr the first bus fr quite long and reached hme arnd 7 plus.

that sort of sums up my new year. probably the most meaningful and most memorable one i will ever have. what a way to end 2006 and begin 2007. hope 2007 will be a rly good year for me. rly heng i went for tis outing. heh.

haha quite long post. lol. 6-1 gives me lots of thigns to say abt. lol.

hope my experience wif frens will chnge in 2007 too.

okay tired now alrd. go out tmr anyone? last day bef sch reopens alrd.

out at queensway

2006-12-31T00:04:00.000+08:00

hi. today is new year's eve.

coolness.

nxt yr shall be a much much more fruitful year i hope. a new life awaits. hmm let's see..

yay and there's 6-1 cls outing tmr. whoo at least dere's sth to do on a new yr's eve. hope it'd be fun. haha. and yea dno whr i've noticed abt tis but we've had 5 outings including this in total alrd tis yr. so on man.. haha. pri sch cls smemre. whoo! hope tis carries on till forever!

slpt 5 am ytd and woke up at 10 plus. went to tampines branch of POSB to make an atm card. den went to cut hair. went back home and met pr arnd 3 at simei station. took an hr jus to go to qway and an hr back. it was almost a wasted trip. wanted one shoe but it was out of stock. but as we were leaving, i couldn find my bro so we jus went to a random shop to check if he was dere. den i came across a pair. so in the end i jus got tt one. bought a pair of boots for my bro too.

and all these even tho i hvn gotten my pay yet.

anw today would be the last day of 2006. sad to say i'll really miss all that has happened this yr. made a lot of new frens. lost many too. hmm think tis has to be the year that had the most impact on me alrd. i did a lot of foolish things. regret.

but anw in a few mre hrs time it's alrd a new year.

lol sian. im supposed to slp early today.

gna slp now den. tired.

happy new year

it all comes back again

2006-12-30T00:04:00.000+08:00

and the rain finally stops. whoo. so nice to see dry ground aft so long. tho i didn get to see it for quite long. probably a few mins of it only.

chalet ytd. bored. didn do much at all. jus er. stone dere and whiled my time away.

now i know one thing for sure.

that person sucks. i dun rly have such feelings for a very long time alrd and now it jus happens again. what to do. and if that person happens to reads tis. gd or bad for u.

its all but a pretense man. try to put up a false front everytime and it pisses me off. not just once or twice but everytime. in public its "friend, friend, friend". elsewhere its as if we're history's greatest rivals. u jump to conclusion so quickly, and u probably think that im jus trying to get in ur way. sorry, but no. it isn like tis. i dun harbour such a motive at all. if i led to think otherwise, im sorry. i really hope that things can patch up as soon as possible. really hope things can revert to the past, whr i rly enjoyed those times. for all i know, u've changed. oh well. god bless u.

this feeling will be gone aft awhle but my impression will still stand, i guess. unless sth happens. haha. and dun assume too. =)

im really really tired now. both physically and mentally. hardly even slpt last nite. tho i got the bed. paiseh for taking up space. got to work right after the chalet. how good can it get. and adding on to all the shit i've been thinking. argh. anw today's the last day alrd. not sure if im glad abt tt or not. honestly, thoday's the first ever time i loathed work. probably coz im really tired aft the chalet. i almost lost it during work jus now too. was abt to lose my cool and jus unleash at that bloody grumpy customer. but heng i jus stood up.

think i'll miss everything abt work a few days later even tho im so glad i dun hvta work anymre now. all the people, all the fun, and all i've learnt during work.

but hey, PAY's NEXT MONTH! 15th. so near yet so far.

ah think i shld slp now or i'll probaby start letting my mind wander again. bad.

ok to u. peace.

bye

day out day in

2006-12-27T01:19:00.000+08:00

heyhey

and thanks to everyone so much.

cant seem to get the feeling off yet but at least im not thinking abt it too much anymre. haha grown up alrd. lol -.- ah its bound to happen sooner or later so might as well..

err went for christmas mass. den went out wif kif wx ted and jy. suntec. didn do much. just that jy and ted left early. so me kif and wx watched night at the museum. not a bad comedy. not much of a plot but ben stiller's acting is quite good. haha most of his parts he did it very well. funny! perked me up quite a bit. other den the movie didn do much alrd. ehh jus that we queued almost an hr for the gourmet section when we didn have to queue. hahaa. that was rather interesting. heh nth much but its nice to have their company :D ran at nite after that.. have to let it all out.

work today. was supposed to go meet them in the mrng. couldn wake up in time. was only jolted awake by the vibration when yj called. PAISEH! hope u all had fun anw..

yay rather pleased wif work today. i sold mre sets den my previous days.. whee gna top sales soon. haha. if only there's commision..

ah didn do much the past few days la. free tmr, who wna go out? leave a tag or sth. thanks :D

k gna try new game now! ultimate alliance whoO!

cya

christmas a la meaningless

2006-12-25T01:07:00.000+08:00

merry christmas merry christmas.

yea rite.

just came back frm a bbq. frankly, i didn enjoy it at all. firstly it was drizzling non-stop the whole time. half the time we were just trying to keep ourselves try whle fumbling wif the tongs. food was not bad. too much food actually. oh well. just didn have the mood at all la.

and i really agree wif wad father boscow said earlier in the sunday mass. Christmas is jus a modern delusion everyone perceives it to be.

like wad he said. the poor only feels even poorer during christmas. he sees people carrying bags and bags of presents and gifts. and he sits there all alone. dun even have the money to fight his hunger pangs. what is christmas to him? nonsense.

and also. christmas is a time where SATAN reigns above everyone the most. just rearrange the letters SANTA. wad do u get? SATAN. u see santa u think abt santa u want santa to really exist and give u all his hahaload of goodies. what actually is all these? isn it SATAN's devilish grip? im not trying to play the devil's advocate here but isn this all true if u ask urselves this question. SANTA is just one whole big nonsense that misleads people. Christmas is just the day when Christ was born. and now its so damn commercialized there isn any place for GOD and JESUS anymore.

oh and yea. christmas is also the time when people devoid of love jus feels the pain even more. if it isn worse enough alrd, just take a look at every single person u see in town. it just brings more agony to that person. and u ask, why dun u stay at home in the first place? hoho if staying at home hogging the computer all day long would help counter against that feeling, i mean, who wouldn? ahh everything is just not right for me la.

i tink i jus pissed someone off. and im rly rly sry but nth i say now can amend for wad i jus did la. super regret this whle ting. didn noe why i tink tis way in the first place. but wads done is done. dno wad i can do now. GIMME SOME DIRECTIONS GOD>

ah tink i jus nid some time to chill. prolly aft a few days im back to my old self. then everything shall jus be a memory and i'll live to regret it one day.and maybe one day i'll finally get what i want. one day. just one day. and im sure that day will come. LOL. what nonsense. ah whatever.
woah i really cant recollect my thoughts alrd. im just thinking too much at one time i just cant seem to note down everything tt im thinking. and in a understandable way at least. i hate thinking. jus i go for my run later again to keep myself occupied. hopefully. prolly gna do tis till i find myself all normal again. den i shall start things afresh. and work towards my goal. haha. ok not work. wait towards my goal den. err. both la. lol

sian but right now im jus sad la. still have the feeling of being cheated. tho i noe its not supposed to be and there surely has to be a reason behind that. i dowan to feel this way but i jus cant control it. tis is very selfish of me but AH. the point is just that i wanto get it over with as quickly as possible. rawr.

went out wif pr today.. vivo. was packed like crazy. hardly had any space to do anything. eh took a train dwn to harbour front. reached dere in quite awhle den we just went to random shops and looked. saw tis converse bag that ive decided on getting in queensway tis tues. basically didn do much there coz of time constraint. only had lie 2hrs to spend dere coz we had our own diff appointments aft tt. oh well. dere's always tues :D err cant recall much. other den on the way dere was a... oops. ok i shall not say la. i made a promise not to say anything here so i shall adhere to that promise. provided he doesn say anything abt the incident too. otherwise, SUA. LOL. see who more convincing. HAHA.

ok shall go down and run alrd. hope i feel btr aft tt. tmr shall be a bad day for me la. what is christmas even. shall be a reflective day for me.

byebye

occupy me

2006-12-24T01:21:00.000+08:00

jus came back frm work. showered, nth to do now.

im really tired but i jus dun feel like slping. tho slping would be the best alternative for me to while time away, now that i've done with work. i need to get occupied. i hate what is going on now but there isn't any right for me to change anything. i have no rights i have no say. i am wyemin.

ah dun even noe if im even supposed to feel played. ive been kept from so much. i dun have the right to know but i jus feel maybe... ah nvm. its not even fair to u anw. the way im putting things it seems that im the victim but nah. its not meant tis way. im nonsense. lol.

yay jesus' birthday is jus tmr. maybe aft den i shall know what to do. aft den he wll have plans for me and i will truly uds wad life actually is. i don't want tis to happen but if its god's will. why not?

and i really enjoyed today. i woke up really late tho i spent most of my time dreaming abt stuff tt will nv come true. at least imo. looking at things now, yea. oh well. den i didn have time for anything else so i jus went to work. and i was kept busy till supper, den back home. and now im not occupied anymre so. argh it jus flows back in. sian.

i jus realised most of the staff in m1 are bad ppl. bad not as in criminal-like people. but rather let me put it in this way. very-very-hip-people? they go MoS late at nite and party till 6. den they report for work at 1030 the nxt day. 90% of the ppl here smokes as well. and ALL of them scold vulgarities. LOL. damn damn funny la. we'll jus gossip abt any customer we serve. common topic :D ranging from customers with weird names like "Ice hanjokok" to bloody grumpy customers where we'll jus scold all we want in the store. MASS SCOLDING! its damn cool la. what i get to see and experience behind the scenes. now i really know what working life is. i love working life and i dun mind going into it asap. its cool and i really learnt a lot. esp these bunch of ppl even tho they're considered bad influence but self-restraint is enough. i will NEVER smoke. and i dun use that cheem vulgarities like them. i dun even noe what slang they use. but hearing them scold is comical enough. supper time is the bestest la. they will jus share their experience on the most significantly "different" customers. so damn interesting :D

yada-yada. whatever. sian la im jus really down now. i dun even noe what i should do and whether what im doing nw is the correct way out. dun tink wad i do even makes a diff. its not as if im some big shot. im wyemin. i dun even mean anything so. oh well.

i should jus haha off now. typing all these has no meaning too anw.

bye

wake up call

2006-12-23T01:25:00.000+08:00

ah jus came back frm a run.

they say running/doing sports helps one to relieve any worries or stress. they say running helps one feel numb during the run. they say running helps one jus forget everything.

i say no.

at least it is to me. i dno. i jus didn feel any numbness at all, other den my thighs and arms. oh tis sounds like im taking drugs or sth but nah. at least the only thing i gained frm this run is muscle fatigue. if that's even considered a gain -.-

stress. yea rite. i dun seem to feel any diff. and maybe the only diff now is that i have added stress to thnk how im gna feel when i get up tmr and cope wif home. tmr's a saturday. hoho. GG. 5 times more ppl den any usual weekday. stupid christmas. stupid saturday promotions.

and forgetting everything. yea could be. i forgot wad i did today alrd. besides going to work. nth else. im jus living everyday like any other stupid day. no meaning. sian. forgetting everything to me is selective. you choose wad to forget. i want to forget but i cant. rawr. no actually i don't want to forget. at least remembering gives me a goal. a painful goal no doubt but a goal is there to be achieved. pain is shall be another thing.

AH WHY?!

maybe im not even supposed to ask why. ok how come. how come?!

ah. whatever. everything has been there clearly all along. its just that i chose not to see and believe it. or maybe i knew i had no choice to acknowledge it but the feeling hasn been that strong till now. one impulse to rule it all. one major setback to guarantee defeat.

had supper after work again jus now. at least that i can remember. oh the company. even for that very short period of time, i can really forget everyhing. jus truly enjoy myself. then when its over. everything seems to go back to normal. meaningless seconds. work too. i love work. keeps me occupied. i'd do anything to keep myself occupied now. after tis i shall.

anyway after all tis, who cares. im not somebody anyway. im sure i'd be better off tis way too. not doing anything at all. maybe that be the best alternative aft all. letting god decide for me. god shall do what is best for me. i know.

so take me away. this i ask of u.

whoo quite a long post aft so long. meaningless post anw.

i shall go rest now. bye

confusion

2006-12-22T01:06:00.000+08:00

sian.

i am devastated. sad la sad. and i don't know what to do too.

mybe i should stop trying so hard. it sucks. i bet its irritating too.

and tt shld explain the whole thing.

ahh. what to do man. jus be frank wif me? i'd rather the bitter truth than to continue being led by my own misconception.

all this has no meaning.

God please guide me.

boohoohoo.

curse fever

2006-12-19T19:36:00.001+08:00

ah sian im having quite a bad fever now. slpt quite long in the aftnn alrd but im still feeling very drowsy. lol many thanks no-sleep nights. but anyhow, the com is done so..

pee.

yay think im taking leave agn tmr. more so if its raining tmr. ah why rain for wad!

rainy days = lousy days = sianned me.

wah tink i'll feel guilty abt not going back to help them for 3 days alrd. how man.. and i miss the supper too! lol.

so now its.

free supper + chnce to know more about phones + chnce to interact wif ppl vs
stay at home slack + no nid go out and tire myself + get to recuperate + play com

lol obv staying at home would be the btr choice. haha ok see if i can get my boss to let me off not. dun tink can but, try try. haha uh dun tink can alrd. try agn tmr. haha

oh no i jus heard abt the flood and landslide in sg. dno whr its happenning at but i hope it clears soon. and pls ddun let it be in the north area. or rather pls let it not even be in sg. go away la rain. ure irritating.

lol i started tis post in the aftnn i tink. den everytime i alt tab. i add in a line or two. still need arnd a min or so to recall wad i have been typing. kk its midnite now, see if i can finish tis post in one shot. lol.

haha sry chnge of mind. got sudden urge to go work. LOL. im going tmr unless sth weird happens.

lol! jus played a game of soccer in warcraft. so damn comical! lol

oh well tink im gna go slp alrd. nite!

Aww wad a nice com :D

2006-12-19T02:05:00.000+08:00

HEY!!

finally finished most of the stuff wif my new com. so glad its over. haha no more late nites, no mre tiresome screwing and troubleshooting. ahh. yay!

didn slp much last nite ( guess it'd be the same tonite too). tink i slp arnd 5 plus ytd, den woke up aft awhle later for cage. err met tj pr ch ted kh in mac. den we proceeded to cage tgt. it was supposed to be a DHS vs CCHMS vs TMSS(temasek, i duno wads their abbrevations, sry). err overall i tot it was fun.. except a il unpleasant stuff happened but nah, its negigible. haha. it happens all the time in soccer so.. who cares! lol.

rushed back home, drenched in rain water. den called my boss to tell her i'll be taking 2 days leave. LOL. i tink im sick now. haha. but here i am blogging late into the nite, who would blv la. ah heck gna kip tis post short. mb new things may happen tmr :D

kk den take care everyone. tmr shall be com day!

first day off

2006-12-15T23:16:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

ahh i still hvn posted anything abt my europe trip yet.. think im nt gna do it alrd. dun tink i have the time anymre.. esp now when most of my days are packed wif work. :S bt i hv plenty of pics tho. anyone interested can ask me for them. haha

hmm today feels so very much diff frm the past few days.. frankly speaking i tink i've gotten used to my "no-life" life alrd. the slp at 4 plus every nite, wake up arnd 11 plus, get rdy for work den leave at 1 plus and work all the way till arnd 11 plus at nite. den reach hme late agn. the cycle continues.. till today. haha my first day off aft 6 days of cont work. FEELS SO GOOD!

seriously i somehow enjoyed today a lot. dno why. even tho i didn do much today, somehow or rather today gives me the feeling tt its really a holiday. haha the rest of my working days i dun have a life. but i love work la, just that working too much is not good too.

hahaha i dno wad im talking abt either but. ahh. its jus for me to uds and tts all. soo to anyone and esp you, dun work too hard! take life easy and enjoy working!! :D

ok so anw i jus woke up at 10 plus den called ppl to go out today. err managed to only call ivan wz yj and zh. my bro tagged along. bowled for awhle den went to vj concert alrd. a few ppl told me they saw me but i dno who they are so.. haha sry.

sian i dno how i'll go abt spending tmr. no idea really. see how ba. this sucks

bye

WORK IS GOOD fr the first time

2006-12-15T00:23:00.000+08:00

HEY ALL!!

im still in the m1 shop at paragon now. hahaha work's ended. my shift's ended long long ago. housekeeping's done so while waiting fr the rest of the peeps to get rdy, im sneaking to the computers for awhle. hahaha. who cares anyway! the staff sure are bloody nice lah! dno how many stupid mistakes i've made wif the system alrd and yet they're still so patient wif me. THANKS! this grp's alos like the friendliest ppl i've ever met too. out in the floor we serve customer wif grace, and at the back we joke arnd like normal frens :D tts called team spirit! bet they cant see tis la but i really love my job now and all the staff here. even the pay here is gd too :D ahh cant say anything much but im really happy wif tis job. hope i can cont working here even dur first 3 months. so grateful to them for taking time to teach me stuff agn and agn. soo.. yup. i'll try to work as much as i can for them la =)

oh speaking abt first 3 months.. im posted to vj! YAY! but think i'll be missing some lessons to go to work. i dun mind. lol. work makes me happy! whoo

ah ok i think we're leaving for serangoon for supper alrd. ITS ON THEM! YAY! free supper smemre. haha oh and ytd we went clarke quay for supper. i didn go for the extra service tho! hahaha im still a pure young boy. LOL. so many clubs over there. basically the whle stretch was bars and nite clubs. went to tis one dno wads the name alrd. ahha. i shared a drink wif my tchr. i can take alcohol la! no kick! HAHA. bt anw got a lift home frm her so its okay. lol.

ahh ok gtg fr now, continuing tis post ltr on when i get home. nt sure when tho but i will! hahaha

WHOO ok back!! supper was damn gd lah! on the hse smemre.. we shared err rojak and mass pratas. eating as a grp is damn nice. even tho everyone of the staff scolds vulgarities like free, the mood is still damn gd la.. jokes every now and then tho some i dun uds :X i suddenly feel so close to them. haha. anw supper was gd. tts all :D

oh if anyone has anything at all regarding phones or m1 stuff, can ask me! quite familiar wif most abt m1 alrd!! so dun hesitate to ask me ok.. revision oso. lol

haha basically i dun rly have time to blog these few days.. routine's the same. wake up arnd 11. slack a bit till 12 pus. have lunch den chiong to work. till arnd 12 plus i come back.. den slp at arnd 3-4. and the cycle goes on agn..haha but im off tmr! :D planning wif shane wad we're gna do tmr.. ahh cant get enuf ppl lei.. and there is vj band concert tmr nite too.. woot im off on sat too! rejoice! hahaha

hmm i dno but i feel kind of euphoric now. mb i jus have less worries on my mind now tt everything's cleared. i will cont to hold on no matter what but i jus wish for all the best la. god has plans and shall decide for me =)

ok den enuf nonsense. shall try and catch up ltr.. take care alL!

back to chalet again

2006-12-10T13:45:00.000+08:00

ahh ok back to chalet agaain...

jus woke up only. im still daamn tired la! bt i dun wish to screw up my body clock. haha so i shall only slp later at nite. tahan! urgh bet my mind will jus go blank halfway den i'll find myself sprawled on the computer table. err sry tts rather obscene. HAHA.

OKAY so back to the chalet stuff. met celes! viv jf jingfeng xh wy (did i leave out anyone?) at the dte lobby. den me and ch went to go check in. managed to scam them. haha think they needed an adult and an ntuc link card to check in one. haha tt was rather close. err den edna came along the way. went str to the room. hahaha and gj tot we needed a key to open the door. had to chiong back to the counter and ask for a key. wth so damn paiseh. tt small pplastic thing was the key la! magnetic key i tink. lolol. comical.

so aft we settled down, took out the speakers and everything, we started playing cards. there were 2 grps la basically. daidee and bridge. haha jf is a fast learner. tot a few times and he got it alrd. and the daidee grp was damn rowdy. mainly becoz ch and viv were inside. LOL. no offense hor. haha. den aft awhle pr came. cherly sam, limin too. ah i dno if i forgotten anyone out. sry ah i cant tink properly now. den the 5 guys started indian poker. haha amazed why some ppl duno abt tis game. fun fun. den aft awhle everyone joined in. so fun la mass indian poker. no punishment tho. jus play for fun and laughs. den aft tt we got hungry and went to bk. wth they purposely gave me a burger wif no bread. -.- nvm i took a pic alrd. gna send it to CASE soon. :P aft dinner we walked to the arcade. stoned dere not knowing wad to do for 15 min. den decided to head back tot the chalet. haha proof tt i suck at organizing.

err den aft giong back into the chalet. we decided to go out agn. LOL. cycling tis time. mj joined us on the way. walked all the way to the bicycle rental, den found out the shop closed. so we went to the beach for awhle and returned coz it was gna rain. philip and ky den came aftwards. denwe played mass murderer. LOL damn sway i got murderer like 3 times only. =( hahaha damn sian la! den aft tt the mini mahjong table opened but it became a mahjong lesson. haha den aftwards those who weren aslp yet played truth or truth. no dare. i wan do dare lo. i dun mind. lol. awhle later me philip and ky when to a coffeeshop to catch the barca match. barca were damn imba. total domination. haha worthwhile match tho i kept falling aslp, philip too wif ky talking on his phone non-stop since the match started till we were walking back. haha. by the time we went back i was damn tired alr. but dere wasn any space left to slp. so i jus spread a bedsheet on the floor and lied on it. couldn slp la. think dere was celes edna and gj who couldn slp too.

ah anw nxt mrng. mj limin and michelle! omg i forgot her. haha. yea they went to buy jalan kayu roti prata. weird la mj. he jus has to say jalan jayu prata, cant jus "prata". as if they had some trademark on their pratas like tt. lol. but anw it was quite gd. so i didn slp at all tt nite, jus went for the prata wif viv pr mj gj and celes. den i went back in and tried to slp for awhle. couldn. haha den aftwards a few of them went back. so me viv rl ch limin xh and mich went to cycle. a few tried blading whle i shared a dble bike wif ch. LOL. i didn ride much tho. haha blading was so much mre fun. i exchenged wif limin and rl. yay at least i knew how to blade even aft stopping for so long. lol. den we went back and washed up.

lunch aftwards den went back agn. told u it was a flop. haha went back to ch's hse to take his RISK2210 or dno wad. haha. so damn tiring. den edna went home. basically didn do anythng dur tt period. took photos and played till 5 plus den me jf and mj went down to make a fire. haha we did it on the tray lo. and the worse ting was tt we didn have any equitment at all. everything was borrowed. lol and the gayest thing was tt the only food we had for bbq was 20 packed otahs and some marshmellows. bottomline : each of us only had like 3 marshmellows bef running out and at elast 10 of the 20 otahs were brunt. LOL. we bbqed our pratas aft tt. damn nice to eat! den we went back and didn do much alrd. haha talked for quite awhle. dere were dhs cchms tms tkgs cedar and rgs ppl i tink. talked abt our sch life and all. surprisingly time passed very quickly lo. haha den arnd 3 plus we went to the coffeeshop agn to catch the manu match. lol tis time everyone except the slping ppl went. i slp thruout most of the match. lol damn tired la. but manu won anw. hahaha. went back to the chalet and slp till the nxt mrng. aft mac bfast we went home.

haha sry the last part i couldn tink of much alrd. and im damn tired now also so i jus chionged thru. haha. actually we did nth much and people went home too. how sad. haha. hmm to me i tink tis chalet was mre of a get-together-and-understand-more-abt-each-other's-present-life and recalling the past times we had in pri sch. reconciliation. i dno but i think i could have made the chalet much much btr la. sry for being a failure. hope 6-1 bonds will forever be present. and hopefully tis wont be the last time we'll ever get to get together. haha. though everyone will change inevitably, our memories will never change. im looking forward to the nxt outing tt ky's organizing. haha tho i may not be able to go, sadly.

ahh if i left out anything, u can follow up on other SIXONERS blogs. haha and picutres too. wah finally its done. haha im so damn tired now.

CYA and im proud to be a SIXONER :D

6-1 chalet baby!

2006-12-10T00:19:00.000+08:00

YOO!!

the reason im posting tis chalet entry doesn mean i have time now. its jus that i just have the sudden urge to do it from an unidentified source. hahaha ok wadever la. i post can alrd. err no pictures tho. i hate posting pics on tis blog. takes like forever on this com for the pic to upload. hmm so if u wud like to see pictures, jus click on the "vivienne" link and u'll find MANY and i mean MANY MANY pictures dere. most of mine are frm her anw. haha

yea lemme recall wad happened on the first day..

hmm i woke up arnd 9 plus aft slping at 5. was supposed to meet chaihong at 9.30 but met him in tm at 10 instead. so we made our way to NTUC to grab some stuff for the chalet. mainly jus chips, drinks and instant noodles. yep. the total was like 40 plus i tink. hvn paid him yet tho. not enuf sia! hahaha bt nvm la. so we lugged 4 bags of drinks, 2 bags of noodles, and another 3 bags of chips, looking like idiots who seemed to have too much money(oh how i wished) back to ch's hse. he needed to bring his stuff and speakers. so there comes another 2 mre bags. so in total we had arnd 11 bags and walked back to tm mac. bet we attracted quite a lot of attention lo, carrying tt many stuff. lol. not like we wanted anw.

so aft lunch we went pasir ris mrt to meet celesta and gj. thankfully they helped a lot. hahaha. den we headed down to dte itself. OH YEA. one thing i must mention. while in tm mac, ch disappeared frm his toilet trip for at least half an hr. i asked him thru sms if he was okay and he returned and said @#!, u distracted me. -.- den at white sands' mac, we disappeared fr another half an hr. i asked him to hurry up and he smsed me back saying "wth u scared the shit out of me, ya (how i wish). lame man. can talk on phone in toilet smemre. cool dude. lol. he had constipation apparently.

hmm tink ima cont on the downtown east onwards part mb another time. shagged la! had to wake up so early and got scammed into cabbing down to stadium's mac too. haha. den we stil had competition. ONESG. lol. the competition was screwed la. but as a whle i tink we did well. =) well down all!! no worries man so wad if we didn get thru, we're stil a team wad. YAY!

den had to chiong home and chiong back out immediately aft changing to paragon. work =( but at least i enjoyed today's work. i was rly having fun la. much much much btr den ytd's! the staff today were exra frenly and i became quite confortable dere alrd. knew quite a few ppl now. and the manager dere is extremely nice. i dno wad to say man. haha.

OKAY LA. basically its physical work frm 6in the mrng to 11.30 at night and my back's like breaking soon. SAVE ME SOMEONE! okok lucky i don't have work tmr. thank god! haha im gna slack the whle day tmr man.

ah i didn know why i'd feel btr u aft u tell me yourself even tho its so so so saddenning. guess i jus dun like to be kept in the dark? so even if i had to knew the bad news, i'd rather be aware of it than cont to be kept in the dark. ahh but thanks so much la anw. gd frens! and no secrets ok..

ah im gna die soon alrd. shall plonk on my bed aft tis and fall aslp immediately. CYA ALL!

shit job

2006-12-08T20:37:00.000+08:00

HEY!

jus had chalet frm 5-7. SO FUN LA OMG. but could be more fun tho. i shall do the chalet post another time. hahaha damn damn busy now. still hvta think of what happened then den i shall post one. haha. could be a few days, not sure.

err today was a damn busy day. the most stressful one i've had too, maybe. haha now i realise why ppl feel like committing suicide over work. its so damn stressful la. even though im working only as a temp and doing part time. but the thing is even tho im doing temp and part time im still doing wad perm staff are doing. so yea. screw m1. hahaha. but stil i feel for working adults. poor ppl. esp those wif family :X stressful like anything la! i will try to help out as much as i can at home now and not make unneccassry trble for my dear dear parents :D

ok here's wad happened. work up so damn tired tis mrng. 8 plus i think. den aft chionging like siao at home, chionged again to the shop at paragon. its the big shop fyi. those whr they had info booth, 15 counters jus for phone purchase and another arnd 10 counters for customer service. u noe u noe.. haha.

ok so i arrived dere early. 10 when its supposed to be at 10.30 . they gave me a super small shirt. wth. hahaha. den they started a meeting. didn noe it was a meeting at first. hahaha. i was standing at the side till one of the snr staff asked me to sit down. lol. eh yea thruout the whle meeting, my first was really cool. hahaha there was a mirror in front and i had the most flabberghasted face i had ever seen. lol. i knew no shit abt wad he was saying. haha. and i still thought i would after awhle.

wakao their expectations are damn high. firstly i knew nothing abt their shop operations. secondly im a loyal singtel customer and i hate m1. bottomline : i knew nothing abt m1 stuff at all. haha and thirdly, i jus got my phone early this yr so it is impossible for me to chnge my phone any time soon thus i know nothing abt phones too. so how would i even noe how to promote stuff to customers. LOL. i read abit on their plans and a few "Hot" phones before i came tho. and guess wad. the phones were either out of stock or obselete. -.- and the plans had to link to wad i was supposed to do at all. HAHA. such a loser man, me. oh and i wonder when m1 came out wif their broadband service. Like wth la, dur the meeting the manager was like telling us there were no more stock fr dno wad PC card and stuff for their broadband. LOL i still thought broadand was some kind of plan or sth. -.- anyway i jus found out today that, m1 HAS BROADBAND INTERNET SERVICE. good gracious me. haha gta read up on it soon i guess.

so i thot everything would still be okay aft awhle. it was. till aft lunch break. made a super big boo-boo la! dno how now. lol bet i left them a super bad impression :X was supposed to sell this guy the Chat EZ prepaid card. ended up giving him 2 Super M cards -.- but lucky both were at the same price. so i jus chnged the records to Super M without him knowing. ah sorry! den the same thing right aft this one to a foreigner. heng ah if not for this customer i wouldn have realised i did the same for the previous one. had to trble the snr staff to help me transfer and everything. den i managed to convince him to take up the Super M one only aft she trasferred. :X so she had to transfer it back again. haha. damn man i create mre trble only. i tink she was rly pissed. haha peak hr and i had to do tt. wad nonsense. and the last part was tt i helped some guy deregister aft he told me customer service referred him to me. haha super pai seh. bet i left a super bad impression la. on my first day in my first job smemre. LOL

ehh ok i whiled the final few hours bef i knocked off. super damn tired now. rather fulfilling day tho knowing tt i jus earned my first few bucks :D

ahh why mus things always be kept frm me. i really value openness. i rather hear the bad news than be kept in the dark. i hate tt la. i dun like probing too but no choice rite. bleah.
give chnce give chnce! haha

zz ok dere's still ONE SG competition tmr at cage. haha dun think im feeling excited coz there's no expectations of winning anything at all. hahaha. jus go dre and chill. den job again in the aftnn :X

sian im confused like hell now. anw i'll work on the chalet post when i have time. quite a lot of stuff to say. haha tho i was shit as the organizer. LOL. sorry ppl man. hahhaa

ok gtg for now. bye

YAY YAY

2006-12-04T16:11:00.000+08:00

YAY i got the job!

haha its basic pay 7/hr. more den alright for me. lol =)

im sry for neglecting. busy la

err nth much happened for the past few days. haha. just the same day except that rather den going to guardian and selling stupid eyerelax, im at home doing nth. 2 diff things but oh well. im not cut out for that. hope i do well for my current job anw.

woohoo dere's chalet tmr! 6-1 one. rather excited =) been 2 years since our last one and tis could very well be our last chalet too. haha hope it will turn out well!

sadly aft tis thurs i dun tink i have anymre free days left. ah like i nid them anw. sian

ah i think i shld jus enjoy the nxt 3 days den its down to earth stuff alrd. yup tts all. i tink im getting sick of blogging too. nth much happening and nth much to say too.

oh oh my cousin's gna leave for Doha tis thurs. wushu competition. haha i hope he wins gold man. imba shit. den hes much closer to getting a lambo by himself. LOL. 250k leh price money!!

kk gna play soccer soon. 2i peeps except wx are coming. shane and pr too i tink :D whoohoo! :D

i duno wad to say or feel now. haha. wadever im jus played.

ok i gtg now. take care

failure

2006-12-01T23:11:00.001+08:00

hello.

i am a failure.

job interview galore

2006-11-30T02:53:00.000+08:00

argh. com crashed and i lost the whle post. rather long. took quite awhle to type.

screw tis com man.

dang not gna retype the whle ting. too time consuming.

basically jus went for mre interviews today. jus as fun as ytd, if not even btr. less jay-walking tho. more PRANK CALLS! yay damn fun. haha had to chnge diff accents to fit the description. hilarious. lol. arnd 4 jobs in total i tink.

ah how ah. my cousin told me dere's a job available in some m1 store. 8 per hr. but i hv to neglect those ppl. wah. die die. hope hes able to get more vacancies. den we can all take up the job tgt. whoo tt'd be gd :D

oh den we went to bugis st to buy stuff for awhle. saw this really really outstanding denim SHORTS. its rly rly rly short. lol. reminds me of ah goon. damn funny

HAHA. argh actually i tink today was mre fun den ytd. too bad the com crashed. wasted all my effort. ah wonder wad tmr's gna be like.

cool day

2006-11-28T23:41:00.000+08:00

woke up aft 4 hrs of slp.

den rushed to meet tj and ch at bedok mrt. i tot i was late. haha. met keith at dhoby ghaut station. went for our first job interview.

FREAKING HILARIOUS! ch told us when he called the person on the newspaper. the name was jasmine if im not wrong. turned out to be a malay man. bt anw we arrived at a placed called "blendinn". the person also stated they were an mnc. expanding overseas. the place was ironically small tho. and it was an inn. turned out they were selling nano products. lol. den they gave us a grp interview. tt guy was so formally dressed, i was surprised they needed students. ok den came his brief intro abt the company. bla bla. it was ok-ok until he mentioned.

"we are currently rather established overseas. with around 9 companies worldwide at the moment. we are dealing with nano-technology. basically we have offices in SAUDI..."

BINGO. tt was one of the hardest times i had to control my laughter. i tink i giggled slightly. couldn help it la. LOL. its not tt im racist or wad. but that was rather sensitive. haha

den we went to foodcourt at ps for lunch. ch tried calling a few other adverts. den there was tis one.

ch : hello. i am calling to enquire about a part-time job featured in the classified ads on today's newspaper.
ch: we're 16.
ch: yea. yea.
ch: YO!

LOLOL. we burst into laughter. haha. eh not rly funny saying it here but i swore i laughed till i teared dere. haha. he meant his name btw. ok sry.

den we went for another interview jus nearby. one shop past hotel 81. er no relevance tho. the whle place was rly eerie. overall it looked like some hideout to some drug storage. we went up anw. rang a few times but no one opened. so we jus went in. aft filling up some forms, we waited awhle. awhle = 20 min. arnd dere. being busy ppl. we only waited till our shirts became drier. den keith suggested we prioritise. the nxt 2 interviews seemed mre impt. so we rushed out of the teeny weeny room. i tink ch was the last to leave. and bef closing the door. he said "****care tis place la". LOL. we chionged out aft tt. haha so cool.

eh by that time we had jay-walked arnd 5 roads if im not wrong. 3 big ones and 2 minor roads. on our way to the next location. tink we did another 5+. lol. damn thrilling man. haha. relieve stress. as if dere's any but.. its kinda fun. lol i swear i wun repeat it agn. haha. at the end of the day, we had jay-walked at least 20 roads. at least 10 of them were major roads. 8 lanes total. haha we're mad.

er den went for another 2 mre interviews. one was in a real buisness building. we tot the job dere wud be gd. acted rather professional. den turned out it was a fund-raising event. kif said these events were jus to scam ppl only. only a small portion goes to the charitable organization. and on top of tt we had to sacrifice the whle of tmr jus fr trng. wad a bother. so we scrapped that job.

the nxt one was working for an agent selling starhub products. MAX ONLINE and SCV. the commisino looked rather appealing IMO.

$52.50 --> $40
$45 --> $35
$33.60 --> $30

i could consider tis one if the jobs tmr weren't as gd as tis.

EH ANYONE THINKING OF GETTING ANY OF THE 2 ITEMS. PLEASE CONTACT ME :D
96615280. thankyou you.

aft that we bus-ed to marine parade central for a flier job. got a shock at first tho. it was for a hair problems center. no vacancy anw. sad.

went to pp aftwards to look for more prospects. most of them req at least 2 months. the pay was rather low too. ah sure try agn tmr.

hmm i tot today was a rather interesting day. first time going for job interviews. turned out to be fun. lol. lets see if tmr's abt the same. haha.

till den. bye

bloody slpy day

2006-11-27T21:47:00.000+08:00

so lemme count.

10 - 9. thats 9 hours.

yup. i slpt for 9 hours straight. bloody hell.

argh big big mistake/regret.

damn now i cant slp coz of 2 reasons. =( AH HELP ME!

boo. pls dun be angry anymore. i swear ure the one thing tts not left my mind since i left. sumpah.

its just tt i got scammed by singtel. no autoroam dere. so yea. and when i came back the signal took forever to come. had to pack stuff immediately aft i reached home. slpt soon aft. ah no pt blaming la. its my fault. oh man how now

yea saying all this prolly has no meaning.

sorry

me miss anythign?

2006-11-27T08:14:00.000+08:00

BACK BACK BACK

at long last.

plane jus touched down not long ago. jus over an hour only. couldn blv we chionged home tis fast. ok dere's lotsa stuff to do. hardly any space left in the hall now. u noe wad i mean.

mb when dere's time i shall do my version of the itinerary for the trip. lotsa fotos taken. take my time and do it.

wah singapore's really HOT. 3 minutes aft i stepped out the bathroom after showering, i start sweating. but maybe its me. so a normal person should most prolly start sweating aft 5 minutes den. and dere jet lag jet lag too. im supposed to be aslp now. haven adapted to sg's time yet.

ok gtg. posting soon!

LAST POST FOR A LONG TIME

2006-11-16T19:40:00.002+08:00

LIBERATION DAY OMG OMG.

guess wad? today's freedom baby!! WHOO. can't blame me for feeling high yea. :D:D

haha i tink dur the first paper today. amths. finished the paper and checked. den the rest of the time was left day-dreaming. lol. my mind was wandering thruout the whle of chem's mcq paper too. hahaha yea and tt explains why i flopped it. got like 3 or 4 questions gone alrd. but i tot paper 2 was ok. the whle chem paper overall was rather tricky. the questions asked were like damn unusual? haha so much diff frm the way ms ns asks.. oh well. and the first qn for paper 2 was. WHAT IS AN ELEMENT?

woah? demoralised. haha why in the world would they ask such a question. sad. how weird. haha. i did either! last min revision works wonders. lol.

hmm how weird, i dun rly feel much euphoria now like im supposed to. am i weird? WHY NO HIGH?? i tink my nerves are dead. haha

TIME TO CHANGE UR NICKS PEOPLE!! :D

ahh not much time left. my hse's in a mess now. bags strewn all over the floor. VERY VERY MESSY!! my mum's like screaming now. hahaha flustered, rly. hmm so tis shall be my last post till abt 2 wks later. gna go overseas rite aft i finish posting tis. flight's at midnight. 12 hours. so gay :

ahh sad sad. gna miss out all the post exam craze!! NOOOO! nah sure not touch abt it agn. but yea, hope everyone's still mad abt games aft im back. haha. WAIT FOR ME!! lol.

damn. ok gna see wad else tts missing den fit it inside the bags.

so till den, CYA ALL FOR A VERY LONG TIME.

I WILL MISS YOU.

LAST POST FOR A LONG TIME

2006-11-16T19:40:00.001+08:00